Saturday, April 12, 2008
"Should all aquaintance be forgot"
This is just a note to my late Great Grandmother.
I may not know you alot. Yet you still are part of the family. Every relative is someone significant and you are also significant. It has been a hard Life for you, adapting to situations nearly I could not imagine how you could live it out. You have put up a real good fight in Life and now, laid to rest in peace. Never worry, never falter along your new path, but I know you will be strong, wherever you go. Rest in peace and God Bless.
Now onto my main topic. Well, it has been a rough week for everybody. I mean, my aunts were all keeping their composure ever since their Grandmother, which is my late Great Grandma, passed away on a Monday, 7th April 2008 at about 11pm at the confirmed death time.
Today on the 11th April 2008, she was lead to cremation in one of the most hi-tech cremation areas I have ever seen. That was the irony when we reached there, we, as in almost everyday who was their first time there, were in awed at how high tech the place was set up. So we watched through glass panels as the coffin was lead into a door where the furnace could be seen. There were shouts like "MOTHER! SIAM!" meaning "get out of the way mother!" get away from what? Well, the fire actually. It was a rather silly claim that if they say that, the body somehow won't be burned. But everyone knows, that the body will be burnt. Yet the family still said it.
When we returned to eat a vegetarian lunch, well it was catered, we had no choice but to eat the "flour" that looks like meat. But it wasn't so bad. Everybody was feeling all ok and happy after that. So now we have to move on.
I guess I mostly disliked funerals. I mean, the dead was laid over there by the void deck. Then for those who are budhist they tend to perform all those joss stick burning and bowing before the coffin on their knees. Another word for it is to Kow-tow to the coffin. Of course being Christians, we shall not bow down before other Gods or idolatry, so we refrain from bowing at all. We still did the walking around the coffin and throwing chrysanthemum flower petals around. After that there was a band over there that played the song of Auud Lane Syne. Meanwhile, the relatives and family members will give their last farewell by talking to the coffin.
What did I say you asked? Well, I said to her "that it has been a hard life, yet you obtain peace in your death. Go steady and God bless, may the Lord be with you. Amen" I just spoke on impulse, but after that, tears begin to come. We have lost, a family member.
I may not know you alot. Yet you still are part of the family. Every relative is someone significant and you are also significant. It has been a hard Life for you, adapting to situations nearly I could not imagine how you could live it out. You have put up a real good fight in Life and now, laid to rest in peace. Never worry, never falter along your new path, but I know you will be strong, wherever you go. Rest in peace and God Bless.
Now onto my main topic. Well, it has been a rough week for everybody. I mean, my aunts were all keeping their composure ever since their Grandmother, which is my late Great Grandma, passed away on a Monday, 7th April 2008 at about 11pm at the confirmed death time.
Today on the 11th April 2008, she was lead to cremation in one of the most hi-tech cremation areas I have ever seen. That was the irony when we reached there, we, as in almost everyday who was their first time there, were in awed at how high tech the place was set up. So we watched through glass panels as the coffin was lead into a door where the furnace could be seen. There were shouts like "MOTHER! SIAM!" meaning "get out of the way mother!" get away from what? Well, the fire actually. It was a rather silly claim that if they say that, the body somehow won't be burned. But everyone knows, that the body will be burnt. Yet the family still said it.
When we returned to eat a vegetarian lunch, well it was catered, we had no choice but to eat the "flour" that looks like meat. But it wasn't so bad. Everybody was feeling all ok and happy after that. So now we have to move on.
I guess I mostly disliked funerals. I mean, the dead was laid over there by the void deck. Then for those who are budhist they tend to perform all those joss stick burning and bowing before the coffin on their knees. Another word for it is to Kow-tow to the coffin. Of course being Christians, we shall not bow down before other Gods or idolatry, so we refrain from bowing at all. We still did the walking around the coffin and throwing chrysanthemum flower petals around. After that there was a band over there that played the song of Auud Lane Syne. Meanwhile, the relatives and family members will give their last farewell by talking to the coffin.
What did I say you asked? Well, I said to her "that it has been a hard life, yet you obtain peace in your death. Go steady and God bless, may the Lord be with you. Amen" I just spoke on impulse, but after that, tears begin to come. We have lost, a family member.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Mixed Feelings Day... More sad then Happy
Today... I just got back from Tan Tock Seng Hospital.
No, I'm not injured. Let me explain this from my workplace. It was a mixed feelings of happy and sad day today.
Before I left my office, I was told it was my last day at work. Wow. I was happy at the instant she said that... Then I went sad. How am I suppose to pay up for my school fees now?
Yup so I left the workplace just like that feeling two feelings at the same time. I doubt anybody can do that... Well except probably my aussie friend Gail...
Anyway, the moment I was about to reach Tiong Bahru Station, I received a phone call from my mom. Actually, she went to the hospital in the early morning to visit my Great Grandmother which have been hospitalized as she was in critical condition. So this time, it was after work, about 6.30pm, she called me to announced, in a calm voice, that she has... passed on.
I mean, I was not that shock, neither am I happy. I was, in-between. My great-grandma has just passed on. All of a sudden images of the past begin floating in. In case you did not know, my Great Grandma had led a very hard life. She had to do loads of things for her children and one of her children was my grandmother which I dearly love. Yet this Great Grandma, had to work a living for her kids and of course by then, my Great Grandpa was not around anymore. So she had to slog it out herself to raise money for her children.
So there I was, talking to my mom and she told me if i wanted to come down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. I admitted I was a little reluctant as I was on my way to Sean's house to practice 3D Studio Max. However, I knew in the end I would go. For the sake of encouraging other relatives as well as to be there when such situations happen. So i did. I went down using MRT.
On the way to TTSH, I met my Japanese Teacher from the Community Centre which he taught us. Suzuki-sensei was with his wife. I can tell. But I did not see his face. I tapped his arm and he went. "Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh."
"How are you? Genki?" I was smiling. I mean, I haven't seen my sensei and now he's testing me my jap. Well, thanks to Rie I knew how to answer. "Hai, genki desu." He was nodding his head. We did not talk much due to the congestion inside the train car. So I left with a "Sayonara" and he did the same.
I know I am going about random stuff so bare with me. It has been a long day.
On route to TTSH, I was thinking about the times I spent with my Great Grandma. They have not been a close one. I always remembered that she had golden false teeth. She was really friendly during Chinese New Year and I remember we had to shake her hand and get Ang Pow's from her. That was when she had both her legs... Yes, due to some disease, i belief its cancer, they had to amputate both her legs. Actually it was suppose to be one. But they discovered another growth and then they had to cut that too.
I mean imagine. You can't WALK. Forever, wheel-chair bound. I sometimes, admire her because of this. Somemore your self-esteem will be affected. I mean you have ABSOLUTELY no legs!!!
So ya about the memories... I only remembered the times we spent for her during Chinese New Year, its all so vivid. I mean, I was a kid when she was still healthy. And she will always put on that gold teeth smile. I would greet her, and she will go "Good boy".
Hey, but we were not that close. But no matter close or not. We are still part of the family. And relatives are your flesh and blood and thus, we are all in this together. I went to see her in the ward. Her body was still there. Just laying still, her eyes closed, with the breathing tube in her mouth.
Of course naturally, you would want to know how she died. I asked my great uncle's wife. She said she went off peacefully. They did not know she stopped breathing because they were dependent on the machine that monitors heart beat. This was after doctor had administered medication. Then as they were pacing around, one of my relatives noticed the breathing bag was not moving anymore, yet her heart show signs of movement. But the doctor confirmed. That once she's not breathing she's considered gone.
The reason why the heart monitor was still reacting was due to the medication. We stayed there for a long time. About 10pm, the monitor finally came to a line. No more sound, no more beeps. When I went in there, I saw all my Christian relatives are praying for her. For God's blessing upon her and to encourage themselves they said they will see her in heaven... Of course I would want the same hope too. So i did. I just prayed that God would at least visit her and talk to her before anything happens. I blessed her and after that we left TTSH.
No, I'm not injured. Let me explain this from my workplace. It was a mixed feelings of happy and sad day today.
Before I left my office, I was told it was my last day at work. Wow. I was happy at the instant she said that... Then I went sad. How am I suppose to pay up for my school fees now?
Yup so I left the workplace just like that feeling two feelings at the same time. I doubt anybody can do that... Well except probably my aussie friend Gail...
Anyway, the moment I was about to reach Tiong Bahru Station, I received a phone call from my mom. Actually, she went to the hospital in the early morning to visit my Great Grandmother which have been hospitalized as she was in critical condition. So this time, it was after work, about 6.30pm, she called me to announced, in a calm voice, that she has... passed on.
I mean, I was not that shock, neither am I happy. I was, in-between. My great-grandma has just passed on. All of a sudden images of the past begin floating in. In case you did not know, my Great Grandma had led a very hard life. She had to do loads of things for her children and one of her children was my grandmother which I dearly love. Yet this Great Grandma, had to work a living for her kids and of course by then, my Great Grandpa was not around anymore. So she had to slog it out herself to raise money for her children.
So there I was, talking to my mom and she told me if i wanted to come down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. I admitted I was a little reluctant as I was on my way to Sean's house to practice 3D Studio Max. However, I knew in the end I would go. For the sake of encouraging other relatives as well as to be there when such situations happen. So i did. I went down using MRT.
On the way to TTSH, I met my Japanese Teacher from the Community Centre which he taught us. Suzuki-sensei was with his wife. I can tell. But I did not see his face. I tapped his arm and he went. "Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh."
"How are you? Genki?" I was smiling. I mean, I haven't seen my sensei and now he's testing me my jap. Well, thanks to Rie I knew how to answer. "Hai, genki desu." He was nodding his head. We did not talk much due to the congestion inside the train car. So I left with a "Sayonara" and he did the same.
I know I am going about random stuff so bare with me. It has been a long day.
On route to TTSH, I was thinking about the times I spent with my Great Grandma. They have not been a close one. I always remembered that she had golden false teeth. She was really friendly during Chinese New Year and I remember we had to shake her hand and get Ang Pow's from her. That was when she had both her legs... Yes, due to some disease, i belief its cancer, they had to amputate both her legs. Actually it was suppose to be one. But they discovered another growth and then they had to cut that too.
I mean imagine. You can't WALK. Forever, wheel-chair bound. I sometimes, admire her because of this. Somemore your self-esteem will be affected. I mean you have ABSOLUTELY no legs!!!
So ya about the memories... I only remembered the times we spent for her during Chinese New Year, its all so vivid. I mean, I was a kid when she was still healthy. And she will always put on that gold teeth smile. I would greet her, and she will go "Good boy".
Hey, but we were not that close. But no matter close or not. We are still part of the family. And relatives are your flesh and blood and thus, we are all in this together. I went to see her in the ward. Her body was still there. Just laying still, her eyes closed, with the breathing tube in her mouth.
Of course naturally, you would want to know how she died. I asked my great uncle's wife. She said she went off peacefully. They did not know she stopped breathing because they were dependent on the machine that monitors heart beat. This was after doctor had administered medication. Then as they were pacing around, one of my relatives noticed the breathing bag was not moving anymore, yet her heart show signs of movement. But the doctor confirmed. That once she's not breathing she's considered gone.
The reason why the heart monitor was still reacting was due to the medication. We stayed there for a long time. About 10pm, the monitor finally came to a line. No more sound, no more beeps. When I went in there, I saw all my Christian relatives are praying for her. For God's blessing upon her and to encourage themselves they said they will see her in heaven... Of course I would want the same hope too. So i did. I just prayed that God would at least visit her and talk to her before anything happens. I blessed her and after that we left TTSH.
Monday, April 07, 2008
3D-common-sense
Yes it was yesterday that I attended my first lesson in Animation from 3D sense Media School.
I decide to document some stuff here from the lesson or else I would probably forget. Also if anyone is reading this, you can find out more about animation. Its not easy by the way.
Ok, let me start off by saying, the class was just a class of four people. Pathetic? Not really. It was said that their normal Diploma Course has only 10 students! Wowzer! Anyway, that's 3Dsense Media School. Their motto was PASSION, FOCUS, DRIVEN. A great way for students to become. All three at a time.
Right, so I attended my First Lesson. And the lecturer, Gary Wee, told us a few stuff about the FILM PRODUCTION line. Thus, the first lesson is actually the planning stage as well as some fundamentals and after that, we did a few practicals with the tool called 3D Studio Max 9.
The planning stage was called the pipeline. And Gary stated that in order to animate something, the first backbone was... the STORY. After you wrote the script, then the storyboard happens along with the composing of the music and sounds as well as recruitment of people going to do the voice overs. After that is the Character Design and Environmental Design preparations. Animators will start the modeling and drawings of how the story is going to look like. That was known as Pre-production.
After which the Production occurs! This involves Character Animation totally. With lingos like Rigging, Rendering, Putting sensors, camera angles etc. However, the most intensive part of the process is the PLANNING. So this production part is only a minor area.
After this, is the Post Production where the Visual Effects artist will kick in. They will start doing lighting, fur movement, hair movement, particles eg. Fire, smoke, explosion, things that are made up of particles. After this, You have your credits rolling XD
After which we went straight to theory of Perception. There is 1 point and 2 point perception. There are more to go, its just that, most animators used up till 2 points. 3 points is a means of distortion of the picture. This is the most useful part for story boarding.
Next we went straight into the introduction of the 3D studio max tools and what each of it was for. Of course it was going to be hard to remember what each funtion is. But I just treat it as if I'm learning a new media software, which sometimes I play around with. After learning how the modeling of boxes and other geometry polygons. We then went straight to making a house. It was pretty simple yet complicated and irritating. LOL! Irritating because we had to adjust some polygon surfaces and had to click on every single part which you desire to either potrude or pull back.
Ok I'm boring some people already. LOL! I haven't shared finished but now, I need to go for lunch! I'm late! Blogging @ work again, u guessed it. Cya.
I decide to document some stuff here from the lesson or else I would probably forget. Also if anyone is reading this, you can find out more about animation. Its not easy by the way.
Ok, let me start off by saying, the class was just a class of four people. Pathetic? Not really. It was said that their normal Diploma Course has only 10 students! Wowzer! Anyway, that's 3Dsense Media School. Their motto was PASSION, FOCUS, DRIVEN. A great way for students to become. All three at a time.
Right, so I attended my First Lesson. And the lecturer, Gary Wee, told us a few stuff about the FILM PRODUCTION line. Thus, the first lesson is actually the planning stage as well as some fundamentals and after that, we did a few practicals with the tool called 3D Studio Max 9.
The planning stage was called the pipeline. And Gary stated that in order to animate something, the first backbone was... the STORY. After you wrote the script, then the storyboard happens along with the composing of the music and sounds as well as recruitment of people going to do the voice overs. After that is the Character Design and Environmental Design preparations. Animators will start the modeling and drawings of how the story is going to look like. That was known as Pre-production.
After which the Production occurs! This involves Character Animation totally. With lingos like Rigging, Rendering, Putting sensors, camera angles etc. However, the most intensive part of the process is the PLANNING. So this production part is only a minor area.
After this, is the Post Production where the Visual Effects artist will kick in. They will start doing lighting, fur movement, hair movement, particles eg. Fire, smoke, explosion, things that are made up of particles. After this, You have your credits rolling XD
After which we went straight to theory of Perception. There is 1 point and 2 point perception. There are more to go, its just that, most animators used up till 2 points. 3 points is a means of distortion of the picture. This is the most useful part for story boarding.
Next we went straight into the introduction of the 3D studio max tools and what each of it was for. Of course it was going to be hard to remember what each funtion is. But I just treat it as if I'm learning a new media software, which sometimes I play around with. After learning how the modeling of boxes and other geometry polygons. We then went straight to making a house. It was pretty simple yet complicated and irritating. LOL! Irritating because we had to adjust some polygon surfaces and had to click on every single part which you desire to either potrude or pull back.
Ok I'm boring some people already. LOL! I haven't shared finished but now, I need to go for lunch! I'm late! Blogging @ work again, u guessed it. Cya.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
A new story idea! the S E V E N
Alright, I wanted to show my new story idea here! Please I really hope you can comment on it so I can seriously start writing on it. What are your views? Should I continue such a story?
Its a science-fiction novel. I have the inspirations from the show Appleseed. Indeed it was a great 3D animated movie. It is worth the money to buy too. If you love action and females as the main lead? This movie is for you!
Anyway, the story is called SEVEN, enjoy the prologue!
S E V E N : Sophisticated Evolutionary Veteran Enforcer Nuero-enhanced
Written by: Caleb
Prologue… Memory file 15…loaded
“GET DOWN!” yelled one of the men. Fien, ducked behind a broken wall and there was a loud explosion. Debri fell everywhere with some stones hitting some parts of his head despite covering it with both hands. But it lessen the damage.
“Move! Flank them!” Fien heard an officer yelled. He recognized the voice to be Sergeant Gillian. Grasping the MK-3000 rifle he had. He jumped over the wall with and opened fire. He ran swiftly, stopping only to hide behind broken trucks and debri as bullets rained down upon him.
Then he heard one of his men shouted from behind.
Fien saw a shadow looming behind him. And the intensity of the shadow tells him that something is coming at him from behind and its fast! Trusting his instincts, he dived forward and the sudden blast near him sent him diving further. He landed on his side and quickly turn to face the shadow. It was a Harbinger. That was what the rebel forces, the Advent, called the humanoid mech. It was a mech that mimics the normal human movements. In other words, it follows the exact human motion within the mech. It was sleek and deadly, and the Marines had a huge number of it.
Fien was not afraid. He immediately took his rifle and fired at the joints of the mech. The Harbinger was smart enough to show its armored side. Fien saw that the Harbinger contained a side minigun and saw the beginnings of its rotation. With quick reflexes, he somersaulted in front of it as it opened fire. He slide between the mech and fired a volley as he did. A splash of blood splattered his face and the Harbinger ceased. Just when he thought he had obtained victory. He looked around and saw that he was totally surrounded. His comrades were all dead, even the sergeant. All the Harbingers pointed their huge versions of their HR-AP-50 rifles. One blow from their 50 rounds and the human body is immediately dismembered. Fien glared at all the Harbingers.
“He managed to defeat a Harbinger. What is he?” One of them spoke, their radio was set to open channel.
“That was just a lucky shot.” One gruff voice said.
“Huh, if you had not watched him you would have immediately disagreed.” Another piped up.
“You were watching?” questioned one. A female voice.
“Hey don’t tell me you’ve forgotten about the Harbinger’s scope abilities.” Said the guy who watched him. He could not just stand there and hear them talk. He was fast enough to let loose a flash bang and the moment he let go the clip he put on his googles. There was a ‘pop’ sound and immediately a very bright light began to shine.
“WAH! Where he go?” Cried the lady.
“SHOOT! SHOOT!” The guy who piped up said.
“WAIT! DON’T SHOOT MORONS! WE ARE TOO CLOSE-“ The gruff voice spoke in alarm, but it was too late. Immediately shots were fired. The moment the flash was gone, only 2 mechs remained.
“Oh my GOD! WE KILLED THE COMMANDER!” One of the soldiers became hysterical.
“Where is that BARSTARD.” The lady was still alive.
“JAN! GET OUT OF YOUR MECH!”
“WH-“
BOOM!
An explosion occurred on the under side of the mech. It was instantly down. The other mech immediately shut down and went offline. The cockpit opened to reveal a soldier inside. He removed his arms from the arm coupling and then, grabbed his rifle by the side of the machine. He came down and was immediately shaking.
Either from fear or from anger, Fien could not comprehend. Yet he was proud of himself from taking down a mech squad all by himself. He approached the pilot from the back. Lifting his knife, he went in for the kill. That was when the pilot turned and immediately fired on him. He felt no pain. Just that he was shocked and surprised. Then he felt a tingling sensation and then, he fell to the ground.
Its a science-fiction novel. I have the inspirations from the show Appleseed. Indeed it was a great 3D animated movie. It is worth the money to buy too. If you love action and females as the main lead? This movie is for you!
Anyway, the story is called SEVEN, enjoy the prologue!
S E V E N : Sophisticated Evolutionary Veteran Enforcer Nuero-enhanced
Written by: Caleb
Prologue… Memory file 15…loaded
“GET DOWN!” yelled one of the men. Fien, ducked behind a broken wall and there was a loud explosion. Debri fell everywhere with some stones hitting some parts of his head despite covering it with both hands. But it lessen the damage.
“Move! Flank them!” Fien heard an officer yelled. He recognized the voice to be Sergeant Gillian. Grasping the MK-3000 rifle he had. He jumped over the wall with and opened fire. He ran swiftly, stopping only to hide behind broken trucks and debri as bullets rained down upon him.
Then he heard one of his men shouted from behind.
Fien saw a shadow looming behind him. And the intensity of the shadow tells him that something is coming at him from behind and its fast! Trusting his instincts, he dived forward and the sudden blast near him sent him diving further. He landed on his side and quickly turn to face the shadow. It was a Harbinger. That was what the rebel forces, the Advent, called the humanoid mech. It was a mech that mimics the normal human movements. In other words, it follows the exact human motion within the mech. It was sleek and deadly, and the Marines had a huge number of it.
Fien was not afraid. He immediately took his rifle and fired at the joints of the mech. The Harbinger was smart enough to show its armored side. Fien saw that the Harbinger contained a side minigun and saw the beginnings of its rotation. With quick reflexes, he somersaulted in front of it as it opened fire. He slide between the mech and fired a volley as he did. A splash of blood splattered his face and the Harbinger ceased. Just when he thought he had obtained victory. He looked around and saw that he was totally surrounded. His comrades were all dead, even the sergeant. All the Harbingers pointed their huge versions of their HR-AP-50 rifles. One blow from their 50 rounds and the human body is immediately dismembered. Fien glared at all the Harbingers.
“He managed to defeat a Harbinger. What is he?” One of them spoke, their radio was set to open channel.
“That was just a lucky shot.” One gruff voice said.
“Huh, if you had not watched him you would have immediately disagreed.” Another piped up.
“You were watching?” questioned one. A female voice.
“Hey don’t tell me you’ve forgotten about the Harbinger’s scope abilities.” Said the guy who watched him. He could not just stand there and hear them talk. He was fast enough to let loose a flash bang and the moment he let go the clip he put on his googles. There was a ‘pop’ sound and immediately a very bright light began to shine.
“WAH! Where he go?” Cried the lady.
“SHOOT! SHOOT!” The guy who piped up said.
“WAIT! DON’T SHOOT MORONS! WE ARE TOO CLOSE-“ The gruff voice spoke in alarm, but it was too late. Immediately shots were fired. The moment the flash was gone, only 2 mechs remained.
“Oh my GOD! WE KILLED THE COMMANDER!” One of the soldiers became hysterical.
“Where is that BARSTARD.” The lady was still alive.
“JAN! GET OUT OF YOUR MECH!”
“WH-“
BOOM!
An explosion occurred on the under side of the mech. It was instantly down. The other mech immediately shut down and went offline. The cockpit opened to reveal a soldier inside. He removed his arms from the arm coupling and then, grabbed his rifle by the side of the machine. He came down and was immediately shaking.
Either from fear or from anger, Fien could not comprehend. Yet he was proud of himself from taking down a mech squad all by himself. He approached the pilot from the back. Lifting his knife, he went in for the kill. That was when the pilot turned and immediately fired on him. He felt no pain. Just that he was shocked and surprised. Then he felt a tingling sensation and then, he fell to the ground.
Setting the Boundaries
Its been a long 2 days of filing... Yes, I have been doing "filing" which includes putting files into boxes and moving them to the store ALL BY MYSELF!
I mean, I moved and shifted a whole lot of files from shelves to boxes I have to make myself cause it was in a template form. Then I have to trolley my way to the storeroom and moved and arranged the boxes inside as well as to make space for more boxes. All in all, I would say at least 30 boxes of heavy files I have moved. Wow. Oh and I got a free pillow along with it. It was a Holiday Inn Atrium Staff Night Pillow and there were numerous of it in the store. Got my boss approval to take one. =)
Well I guess I have finally reached my limit to this job. The routine really makes me so bored. Such that I have even started to turn up late and of course I TRIED to not be late. But my body has a brain of its own. Thus, its time I set up my boundaries, a plan as well as a few disciplines that I REALLY need to follow. My problem was discipline, praying for discipline only stirs the Holy Spirit to EMPOWER you to succeed. Thus, in the end, ACTION is required! I suppose I have to learn to sleep early... and I need it anyway...
Probably I should state a rough idea here. I need to sleep at about 11pm latest. *sigh* I need to wake up early like 7am every morning. Erm, maybe earlier than that due to school. *sigh* Practice my animation, guitar, piano stuff everyday, and try to write a chapter a day. Yes, I have been procrastinating my studies.
Well I better end here for now. I pray that all procrastinators, you know who you are, do the same. God desires hardwork and not laziness.
I mean, I moved and shifted a whole lot of files from shelves to boxes I have to make myself cause it was in a template form. Then I have to trolley my way to the storeroom and moved and arranged the boxes inside as well as to make space for more boxes. All in all, I would say at least 30 boxes of heavy files I have moved. Wow. Oh and I got a free pillow along with it. It was a Holiday Inn Atrium Staff Night Pillow and there were numerous of it in the store. Got my boss approval to take one. =)
Well I guess I have finally reached my limit to this job. The routine really makes me so bored. Such that I have even started to turn up late and of course I TRIED to not be late. But my body has a brain of its own. Thus, its time I set up my boundaries, a plan as well as a few disciplines that I REALLY need to follow. My problem was discipline, praying for discipline only stirs the Holy Spirit to EMPOWER you to succeed. Thus, in the end, ACTION is required! I suppose I have to learn to sleep early... and I need it anyway...
Probably I should state a rough idea here. I need to sleep at about 11pm latest. *sigh* I need to wake up early like 7am every morning. Erm, maybe earlier than that due to school. *sigh* Practice my animation, guitar, piano stuff everyday, and try to write a chapter a day. Yes, I have been procrastinating my studies.
Well I better end here for now. I pray that all procrastinators, you know who you are, do the same. God desires hardwork and not laziness.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Tired to the bone... More Headaches arises...
Recently, I have been thinking alot.
Ever since Pastor Tan preached on not to Procrastinate, the time is now. I knew in my heart that it is finally time to start something. I did not know it would land on a Sunday... So now, my church days will be Saturday. But Saturday i have work at Sumo, a stall at Food Junction in Lot 1 Shoppers Mall. However, I managed to negotiate with my supervisor to allow me off the hook for Saturday and let me work on another day.
Sure that was the First Hurdle. After that, there was the problem of practice. Where do I get the money to buy 3D Studio Max Software??? Hey, then 3Dsense Media told me that I can use their rooms on weekdays. Wow... A really dedicated school 3Dsense is... Yet my dilemma is... The school is all the way at Dhouby Ghaut. I mean its far away from my home in the West. I would have to take the Red Line all the way back home then the Green Line after my work and I hope that I will have enough time to work on my task and even do something of the task.
Third Hurdle, will I be able to cope with Working, Studying and Animation Studies at the same time? Remember, I am still doing a module. Come to think of it, Bioprocess Technology is not Easy... I need shear will power to get this through....
Last Hurdle, what if, I drift too far away from God? Due to busy-ness. I guess I won't know until I tried. Actually, my mom was very concerned in me taking a liking to animation.
"You must be creatively good as well as talented to be in this field!" She told me. But one of the directors said that all the works done are by shear hardwork. And I mean they slogged till the night, the morning and manage to produce a dew frames. Hey but its still not easy. I guess thats where we need God...
Anyway this are just my thoughts on how this course may affect me. Yet if I analyse the situation? I believed I am pretty blessed. I mean, my friends wanted to try out the course there and now I can witness for them as well as gain the knowledge first hand too. God... I know... Hardwork pays off, and I have been a Procrastinator, I admitted. Its the case for the Trailer Project from our Cell Group. I know I have to REMOVE this habit if I want to be an animator. And I MUST not be AFRAID of HARD WORK!!!
God come and change this area of my life. This so lazy and too last minute person. In the end, planning is needed to shape the project as well as the characters too.
By the way, the course name is known as, Creative Film Animation. Its a one man show and we can obtain our very own demorail. A portfolio of some sort. Anyway, i gotta end here... Sleeeeeeeeepy. ZZZZzzzz..... Ok nights.
Ever since Pastor Tan preached on not to Procrastinate, the time is now. I knew in my heart that it is finally time to start something. I did not know it would land on a Sunday... So now, my church days will be Saturday. But Saturday i have work at Sumo, a stall at Food Junction in Lot 1 Shoppers Mall. However, I managed to negotiate with my supervisor to allow me off the hook for Saturday and let me work on another day.
Sure that was the First Hurdle. After that, there was the problem of practice. Where do I get the money to buy 3D Studio Max Software??? Hey, then 3Dsense Media told me that I can use their rooms on weekdays. Wow... A really dedicated school 3Dsense is... Yet my dilemma is... The school is all the way at Dhouby Ghaut. I mean its far away from my home in the West. I would have to take the Red Line all the way back home then the Green Line after my work and I hope that I will have enough time to work on my task and even do something of the task.
Third Hurdle, will I be able to cope with Working, Studying and Animation Studies at the same time? Remember, I am still doing a module. Come to think of it, Bioprocess Technology is not Easy... I need shear will power to get this through....
Last Hurdle, what if, I drift too far away from God? Due to busy-ness. I guess I won't know until I tried. Actually, my mom was very concerned in me taking a liking to animation.
"You must be creatively good as well as talented to be in this field!" She told me. But one of the directors said that all the works done are by shear hardwork. And I mean they slogged till the night, the morning and manage to produce a dew frames. Hey but its still not easy. I guess thats where we need God...
Anyway this are just my thoughts on how this course may affect me. Yet if I analyse the situation? I believed I am pretty blessed. I mean, my friends wanted to try out the course there and now I can witness for them as well as gain the knowledge first hand too. God... I know... Hardwork pays off, and I have been a Procrastinator, I admitted. Its the case for the Trailer Project from our Cell Group. I know I have to REMOVE this habit if I want to be an animator. And I MUST not be AFRAID of HARD WORK!!!
God come and change this area of my life. This so lazy and too last minute person. In the end, planning is needed to shape the project as well as the characters too.
By the way, the course name is known as, Creative Film Animation. Its a one man show and we can obtain our very own demorail. A portfolio of some sort. Anyway, i gotta end here... Sleeeeeeeeepy. ZZZZzzzz..... Ok nights.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Good News! Blog @ Work Fastforward version!
Indeed, I have received Good News.
First Good News of my week: Yang Wei and Elly, my Cell Group Members Just Baptised on Sunday!!! Now their names are David and Apphile. =)
After that, David and I head down to Jurong Point to hang out and we were discussing the usual topics on animation related stuff. Even games are part of the topic. Then we got distracted by a game called Silent Hill: The arcade game. Whoa, it was SCARY! I mean the setting, the boss we fought all were pretty hard to fight! Its a shooting game by the way. In the end, we finished the game and won the whole thing. All in 7 credits cooperative play. LOL!
Had fun on that Sunday.
2nd Good News happened Yesterday: I enrolled into 3DSense Media School for a CERTIFICATE Course in Film Animation. Though it was only one module, cause my Mom, had doubts about me acing it. But I'll show her, like I did in Secondary School. I'll be hardworking in work and my course too. The only downside to this course is, I won't be able to go to Church on Sunday... Had to switch my work schedule so that Saturday after Cell Group I can go down.
3rd piece of Good News: I have two guitar students!!! LOL! David and Guang Jin will be my students from today. If I can only teach them both at the same time... Hmm... Anyway that's all I can blog for now. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!
First Good News of my week: Yang Wei and Elly, my Cell Group Members Just Baptised on Sunday!!! Now their names are David and Apphile. =)
After that, David and I head down to Jurong Point to hang out and we were discussing the usual topics on animation related stuff. Even games are part of the topic. Then we got distracted by a game called Silent Hill: The arcade game. Whoa, it was SCARY! I mean the setting, the boss we fought all were pretty hard to fight! Its a shooting game by the way. In the end, we finished the game and won the whole thing. All in 7 credits cooperative play. LOL!
Had fun on that Sunday.
2nd Good News happened Yesterday: I enrolled into 3DSense Media School for a CERTIFICATE Course in Film Animation. Though it was only one module, cause my Mom, had doubts about me acing it. But I'll show her, like I did in Secondary School. I'll be hardworking in work and my course too. The only downside to this course is, I won't be able to go to Church on Sunday... Had to switch my work schedule so that Saturday after Cell Group I can go down.
3rd piece of Good News: I have two guitar students!!! LOL! David and Guang Jin will be my students from today. If I can only teach them both at the same time... Hmm... Anyway that's all I can blog for now. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Cell Group Disaster!!!
Oh man, its the SECOND TIME that my Guitar String broke in front of Worship.
Really super Pai seh... But during that time, just before it broke, I really could sense God's Presence coming in and when the string broke, even when my face suddenly went red and hot, I felt a reassurance that God is moving in the cell group.
Anyway, it was a great time, Glenn came to cell group today! Wow... also during the time my string broke T_T man I am so embarassed! LOL!!!
It really has been a tough week. News of me going to retake my module again, had tonnes of work thrown at me... Had credit problems that piled up... That's work for you.
But other than that, all is good. I believe, that I have been neglecting my spiritual life, i mean from a Tradition to Transition to Transformation, as what my Pastor has preached, is not easy. But its worth the end product. I am now in Transition, the stage of adjustment to change. I feel that I have been very optimistic of late. I guess that is the only thing I liked the most about myself, the ability to see all things like everything's gonna be alright.
By doing so, I am prepared mentally to face that valley, that challenge. Today I was prayed for by two of my brothers in christ, Wei Loong and Bing Xun , for discipline and to bind laziness, I needed that the MOST. Well, because I tend to be just like that. Thats how I neglect my walk with God and just by deciding that I am going back is not enough. Its also about the ACTION.
Faith is an ACTION word. Thus my name Caleb. I need to Say it with Faith. =)
I love my baptism name... HAHA!
Really super Pai seh... But during that time, just before it broke, I really could sense God's Presence coming in and when the string broke, even when my face suddenly went red and hot, I felt a reassurance that God is moving in the cell group.
Anyway, it was a great time, Glenn came to cell group today! Wow... also during the time my string broke T_T man I am so embarassed! LOL!!!
It really has been a tough week. News of me going to retake my module again, had tonnes of work thrown at me... Had credit problems that piled up... That's work for you.
But other than that, all is good. I believe, that I have been neglecting my spiritual life, i mean from a Tradition to Transition to Transformation, as what my Pastor has preached, is not easy. But its worth the end product. I am now in Transition, the stage of adjustment to change. I feel that I have been very optimistic of late. I guess that is the only thing I liked the most about myself, the ability to see all things like everything's gonna be alright.
By doing so, I am prepared mentally to face that valley, that challenge. Today I was prayed for by two of my brothers in christ, Wei Loong and Bing Xun , for discipline and to bind laziness, I needed that the MOST. Well, because I tend to be just like that. Thats how I neglect my walk with God and just by deciding that I am going back is not enough. Its also about the ACTION.
Faith is an ACTION word. Thus my name Caleb. I need to Say it with Faith. =)
I love my baptism name... HAHA!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Reality...and Fantasy...
Just when I blogged a few minutes ago about having a Glimmer of Hope?
Well, it just got snuffed out. I will be wasting one more semester, doing the same crap of a module. I always love to make every situation and optimistic point of view. Probably, some of you will say that its ok. Well, its not okay. I can't sit around for One more semester just to see the same ass-looking teacher who cannot teach, who lectures till you are BORED to tears! My only hope is to appeal for a refferred examination. Meaning I do not have to attend classes, I just need to sit in for Test and exams. Which I believe I can do it.
In the meantime (here is my optimistic self), I can probably do some courses that will open my eyes to the animation world and of course, work. Need the money for future courses. Oh! And i can work on my piano. =)
Perhaps its too much, but i guess i just want to keep going. I do not want to live a life that has no excitement anymore. I prefer doing things that I love to do more these days. That's probably my Fantasy. Reality will tell me, You can't do all that! Fantasy me? I can do what I love to do and just keep going. If you ask me, I'll choose the latter. It sounds alot better than Reality...
Well, I'll have to figure something out. Now I'm going for my lunch and to write a e-mail to Dr Forday, my lecturer. Yup, for reffered examination appeal...
Well, it just got snuffed out. I will be wasting one more semester, doing the same crap of a module. I always love to make every situation and optimistic point of view. Probably, some of you will say that its ok. Well, its not okay. I can't sit around for One more semester just to see the same ass-looking teacher who cannot teach, who lectures till you are BORED to tears! My only hope is to appeal for a refferred examination. Meaning I do not have to attend classes, I just need to sit in for Test and exams. Which I believe I can do it.
In the meantime (here is my optimistic self), I can probably do some courses that will open my eyes to the animation world and of course, work. Need the money for future courses. Oh! And i can work on my piano. =)
Perhaps its too much, but i guess i just want to keep going. I do not want to live a life that has no excitement anymore. I prefer doing things that I love to do more these days. That's probably my Fantasy. Reality will tell me, You can't do all that! Fantasy me? I can do what I love to do and just keep going. If you ask me, I'll choose the latter. It sounds alot better than Reality...
Well, I'll have to figure something out. Now I'm going for my lunch and to write a e-mail to Dr Forday, my lecturer. Yup, for reffered examination appeal...
Suffering Suckatash!!! with saliva spitting out...
Quoted by Sylvester the Cat,
Famous for its spitting accent. He could almost be on parr with Daffy Duck. But i still think Daffy Duck wins him any day.
Anyway, why did i qoute it in the first place? Well, I am agonizing over my appeal results. Even though I have resigned to the fact that I have to take one more semester, the hope of being able to pass it is still there, lingering inside me. That Glimmer of hope.
Well, no point brooding over this sort of things. Btw, we had a new collegue at work today. She's, yes its a girl, the same age as me well... nearly, coz she said this year she's 20. I'm still 19 until July. Haha. She came from the same Polytechnic as me, but the course was different.
I had a talk with her during Lunch, actually Jaslyn, the person that new girl was attached to, was suppose to bring her for dinner. In the end Jaslyn wanted to go with another collegue for lunch outside of the Hotel and asked me to host her.
So i did.
Talked about how terrible Ngee Ann Poly can be with their money and all that stuff. Until she came to topics on relationships. Yup we got along pretty nicely haha. But folks, its not my time to go steady but anyway. I realised that at this point of time of my age, people tend to ask whether you are attached whether guy or girl. So she asked the question, do i have a girl-friend.
Honestly? I have loads. HAHA! BUT! Just friends. Not steady. I told her I felt I was not ready due to character flaws which I want to work on. also theres the fact of army. Then she told me she had girlfriends and I casually thought, it was just girl and girl go shopping. Until I noticed a picture on her handphone. There seems as if a guy is standing beside her so i asked.
"Who's that?"
She answered, "My girl-friend."
"Ya right, get outta here." I replied with a chuckle in my voice.
"No, really, my Girl Friend."
my eyes were O.O this big.
"Oooook."
Well, actually, I was at first surprised, but then I got over it. I mean. I have seen this before in my own school of LSCT.
"Ya i prefer girls." she said. I didn't push the topic. After which, she ask me to accompany her outside, why? For a smoke. Whoa. So I did, but i never smoked in my life. Don't worry, I did not passive smoke, coz she is considerate enough to blow it in another direction. Unless suay suay the wind blow in your face la.
So ya, to inform my friends out there, that be prepared. There are such cases that you will bump in your life. If of course, you want to reach out to the world in the market place. I belief, everyone of us need to sharpen our focus on God and not get swallowed up, disgusted and critical in the blink of an eye. Acceptance is to be not critical of the person of whatever he/she is doing. Acceptance is from the heart. Its love.
BUT That does not mean, we got to approve of what they are doing. Take note of that.
And yes, Blogging at work again.
Famous for its spitting accent. He could almost be on parr with Daffy Duck. But i still think Daffy Duck wins him any day.
Anyway, why did i qoute it in the first place? Well, I am agonizing over my appeal results. Even though I have resigned to the fact that I have to take one more semester, the hope of being able to pass it is still there, lingering inside me. That Glimmer of hope.
Well, no point brooding over this sort of things. Btw, we had a new collegue at work today. She's, yes its a girl, the same age as me well... nearly, coz she said this year she's 20. I'm still 19 until July. Haha. She came from the same Polytechnic as me, but the course was different.
I had a talk with her during Lunch, actually Jaslyn, the person that new girl was attached to, was suppose to bring her for dinner. In the end Jaslyn wanted to go with another collegue for lunch outside of the Hotel and asked me to host her.
So i did.
Talked about how terrible Ngee Ann Poly can be with their money and all that stuff. Until she came to topics on relationships. Yup we got along pretty nicely haha. But folks, its not my time to go steady but anyway. I realised that at this point of time of my age, people tend to ask whether you are attached whether guy or girl. So she asked the question, do i have a girl-friend.
Honestly? I have loads. HAHA! BUT! Just friends. Not steady. I told her I felt I was not ready due to character flaws which I want to work on. also theres the fact of army. Then she told me she had girlfriends and I casually thought, it was just girl and girl go shopping. Until I noticed a picture on her handphone. There seems as if a guy is standing beside her so i asked.
"Who's that?"
She answered, "My girl-friend."
"Ya right, get outta here." I replied with a chuckle in my voice.
"No, really, my Girl Friend."
my eyes were O.O this big.
"Oooook."
Well, actually, I was at first surprised, but then I got over it. I mean. I have seen this before in my own school of LSCT.
"Ya i prefer girls." she said. I didn't push the topic. After which, she ask me to accompany her outside, why? For a smoke. Whoa. So I did, but i never smoked in my life. Don't worry, I did not passive smoke, coz she is considerate enough to blow it in another direction. Unless suay suay the wind blow in your face la.
So ya, to inform my friends out there, that be prepared. There are such cases that you will bump in your life. If of course, you want to reach out to the world in the market place. I belief, everyone of us need to sharpen our focus on God and not get swallowed up, disgusted and critical in the blink of an eye. Acceptance is to be not critical of the person of whatever he/she is doing. Acceptance is from the heart. Its love.
BUT That does not mean, we got to approve of what they are doing. Take note of that.
And yes, Blogging at work again.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
What Personality Test is for?
Here i am referring to the comment by almosthereee. Also, its not just her, its almost everyone that I encountered that have almost the same thoughts as her... So I am going to write my opinion on what a personality test is for.
First and foremost, by doing and getting the personality test results, you will be able to find out WHERE you are right now. For True Colours Career, I wanted all of us to know what are their TALENTS and ABILITIES which are stronger in their Life. True Colours ever pointed out that, the talents and abilities displayed in your results is not what EVERYBODY can do. I mean NATURALLY. Its a natural ability that is in-built within you. Sure you can always train up for the skill, but imagine, if someone with the ability within them, and they further train on it?
They will be even better than the one who dunno the skill and train it.
Another point to note about Personality Test, it helps you understand your Strengths and Weakness and encourages you to do something about the weakness. Of course, the better way was to work on your Strengths. This applies whether if you're an extrovert or introvert. Btw, some of us cannot help but to be introverted. That does not mean they cannot change to be extroverted. In fact, I have friends who are introverted and kept to themselves, but they packed a punch in their field of work.
Personality test above all helps you identify, but not to condemn, other people. For the case of True Colours Career, that's what it was promoting. To identify and after which you can use this information to help you in whatever way you can. Your mistake would be to condemn people for who they are using Personality Test. For a Blue, they will take this information, to better understand the person they are talking to. Also they will strategise how to relate to the person better. Why i use Blue people as an example? Well... I'm blue. So there. XD
I mean i understand. That having this personality test doesn't really tell all of who you are. But its also one of the most encouraging tools used in the world today. It is sometimes fun to most Blue and Orange people. Greens however may think its a waste of time to do such things. Gold people are 50/50. So far that's what I realised. But the Greens will only do this sort of thing when they know that the things they are doing are getting them no where.
Whoop! Need to smoke! *smoke = Cover up*
Coz i'm blogging while working again. LOL! Ok really gotta smoke.
First and foremost, by doing and getting the personality test results, you will be able to find out WHERE you are right now. For True Colours Career, I wanted all of us to know what are their TALENTS and ABILITIES which are stronger in their Life. True Colours ever pointed out that, the talents and abilities displayed in your results is not what EVERYBODY can do. I mean NATURALLY. Its a natural ability that is in-built within you. Sure you can always train up for the skill, but imagine, if someone with the ability within them, and they further train on it?
They will be even better than the one who dunno the skill and train it.
Another point to note about Personality Test, it helps you understand your Strengths and Weakness and encourages you to do something about the weakness. Of course, the better way was to work on your Strengths. This applies whether if you're an extrovert or introvert. Btw, some of us cannot help but to be introverted. That does not mean they cannot change to be extroverted. In fact, I have friends who are introverted and kept to themselves, but they packed a punch in their field of work.
Personality test above all helps you identify, but not to condemn, other people. For the case of True Colours Career, that's what it was promoting. To identify and after which you can use this information to help you in whatever way you can. Your mistake would be to condemn people for who they are using Personality Test. For a Blue, they will take this information, to better understand the person they are talking to. Also they will strategise how to relate to the person better. Why i use Blue people as an example? Well... I'm blue. So there. XD
I mean i understand. That having this personality test doesn't really tell all of who you are. But its also one of the most encouraging tools used in the world today. It is sometimes fun to most Blue and Orange people. Greens however may think its a waste of time to do such things. Gold people are 50/50. So far that's what I realised. But the Greens will only do this sort of thing when they know that the things they are doing are getting them no where.
Whoop! Need to smoke! *smoke = Cover up*
Coz i'm blogging while working again. LOL! Ok really gotta smoke.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Bored the dust!
http://www.truecolorscareer.com
Why did i paste this link? Well, the source of my new found self-esteem is because of this author by the name of Carolyn Karil. I hope i got that right... I'm sorry if i spelled wrongly too.
Anyways, Carolyn has formed a great personality system of using colours to identify who you are. On this link it tells you which colour are you and yes this has something to do with my first post... Er... I think its the second post... Ok i do not know which but its somewhere at the front. Sorry too lazy to research...
If you wanna know what colour are you, go and do the quiz there! Its free! Also, it will tell you a brief description of what colour you are. Of course, if you wanna know more about your colour, do e-mail me at ninja_clement_naruto@hotmail.com.
This is a shout-out to my aussie vidcall buddy.
Have been reading your post... All i wanted to say is: "Everything's Gonna be Alright" - Alicia Keys from No One.
LOL! That's my best I can do to cheer you up sister. I mean, music is your life, and just wanna say that, I haven't forgotten ya. Its just been pretty busy with work you know. And doing two jobs on one day is seriously physically and mentally taxing. Now I know why people who work are always so drawn out and have almost no energy left to do anything!
I also realised that if you are doing the job you love, you tend to be satisfied even if you are tired and there's bound to be some left over energy to spent. LOL!
"What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts. Why am I talking about it? Well, I love the music video for this song. I mean, its a sad song, and I just love emotionally powering songs, that touches your heart. To be honest, I've been listening to alot of country music, mostly by Carrie Underwood and Rascal Flatts himself. I find that the country of music of today is much better that before. Songs of life are mostly expressed in country and I truly enjoy the way they portray that expression through Country music. There is sort of an energy behind it and purpose behind the song and I never forget that feeling.
I encouraged people to not just listen to all the rock music, but the lyrics of the music and also the portrayal of the expression in the song. All of a sudden, the music world will start to open up for you and probably you will understand why such music and lyrics are portrayed with that form of style.
Well, yes, its a Sunday and I'm rather bored and lonely. I mean my brothers at home, my dad's home but we are all doing our own things. Probably because of my mom. Sometimes, my mom knows how to spoil the day by not letting my brother and my dad to go to church, all because she did not believe that my brother had played the piano? Ok there were other reasons too, but my brother could have completed his work AFTER going to church! Sometimes, I do not know why my mom would do such a thing... That's when I went back to read the book on True Colours and found out she was a Gold. Its those kind of people who are strict with time, with rules as well as with money. They are very family-orientated thus a family who keeps to their control, is their satisfaction. Thats why, a Blue-Orange like myself do not like that. Goes the same to my Orange-Green brother. My dad? Ya same as my brother. My mom is a Gold-Blue. That's when i realise, how difficult sometimes it is to communicate with my mom. I mean she can tell me all of her woes to me, I'm a blue, I listen. Yes I listen one okay!(to all my singaporean friends).
However, when thinks did not go her way, she will tend to be all confused, and i read that Gold's hate change. Not saying that she totally hates change cause everybody has a bit of Blue-Gold-Orange-Green in them. Its just that she does not like to have her life to be out of her control. I guess that answers why some mothers are over-protective... Yes Gail now you know why mothers are overprotective. They are first of all, worried of your safety. Secondly, they just need control in their life. They do not like surprises much. Not like Orange people. Do not understand what i'm talking about? Do that quiz on the top link and then e-mail me if you wanna find out more XD
Why did i paste this link? Well, the source of my new found self-esteem is because of this author by the name of Carolyn Karil. I hope i got that right... I'm sorry if i spelled wrongly too.
Anyways, Carolyn has formed a great personality system of using colours to identify who you are. On this link it tells you which colour are you and yes this has something to do with my first post... Er... I think its the second post... Ok i do not know which but its somewhere at the front. Sorry too lazy to research...
If you wanna know what colour are you, go and do the quiz there! Its free! Also, it will tell you a brief description of what colour you are. Of course, if you wanna know more about your colour, do e-mail me at ninja_clement_naruto@hotmail.com.
This is a shout-out to my aussie vidcall buddy.
Have been reading your post... All i wanted to say is: "Everything's Gonna be Alright" - Alicia Keys from No One.
LOL! That's my best I can do to cheer you up sister. I mean, music is your life, and just wanna say that, I haven't forgotten ya. Its just been pretty busy with work you know. And doing two jobs on one day is seriously physically and mentally taxing. Now I know why people who work are always so drawn out and have almost no energy left to do anything!
I also realised that if you are doing the job you love, you tend to be satisfied even if you are tired and there's bound to be some left over energy to spent. LOL!
"What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts. Why am I talking about it? Well, I love the music video for this song. I mean, its a sad song, and I just love emotionally powering songs, that touches your heart. To be honest, I've been listening to alot of country music, mostly by Carrie Underwood and Rascal Flatts himself. I find that the country of music of today is much better that before. Songs of life are mostly expressed in country and I truly enjoy the way they portray that expression through Country music. There is sort of an energy behind it and purpose behind the song and I never forget that feeling.
I encouraged people to not just listen to all the rock music, but the lyrics of the music and also the portrayal of the expression in the song. All of a sudden, the music world will start to open up for you and probably you will understand why such music and lyrics are portrayed with that form of style.
Well, yes, its a Sunday and I'm rather bored and lonely. I mean my brothers at home, my dad's home but we are all doing our own things. Probably because of my mom. Sometimes, my mom knows how to spoil the day by not letting my brother and my dad to go to church, all because she did not believe that my brother had played the piano? Ok there were other reasons too, but my brother could have completed his work AFTER going to church! Sometimes, I do not know why my mom would do such a thing... That's when I went back to read the book on True Colours and found out she was a Gold. Its those kind of people who are strict with time, with rules as well as with money. They are very family-orientated thus a family who keeps to their control, is their satisfaction. Thats why, a Blue-Orange like myself do not like that. Goes the same to my Orange-Green brother. My dad? Ya same as my brother. My mom is a Gold-Blue. That's when i realise, how difficult sometimes it is to communicate with my mom. I mean she can tell me all of her woes to me, I'm a blue, I listen. Yes I listen one okay!(to all my singaporean friends).
However, when thinks did not go her way, she will tend to be all confused, and i read that Gold's hate change. Not saying that she totally hates change cause everybody has a bit of Blue-Gold-Orange-Green in them. Its just that she does not like to have her life to be out of her control. I guess that answers why some mothers are over-protective... Yes Gail now you know why mothers are overprotective. They are first of all, worried of your safety. Secondly, they just need control in their life. They do not like surprises much. Not like Orange people. Do not understand what i'm talking about? Do that quiz on the top link and then e-mail me if you wanna find out more XD
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Good Friday...
Well... The Day before Saturday was a Public Holiday, Good Friday.
Yup its the time where Christians all over the world celebrate the Death of Jesus and Christ and on the Third day, a Sunday, he Rose Again.
So this celebration is 3 days.
Haha... I went for my cell group outing, dun have the photos coz our photographer haven't upload into her computer, yet. Still waiting, maybe I'll post some up here =)
So ya, had fun and after that we went to Subway for Lunch. After that, rushed down to service. Yes, Easter Service with Drama and all that at Expo.
The Drama was pretty COOL! At the start there will be dancers and boy can they dance! It was a mixture of Chinese Kung Fu with Hip Hop and what a performance! After the dance the Drama team started their story. And it was about a guy named Leonard Lim who invented the I-MING, a device that lets you replay your memories. Happy... or Bad memories. That was the flaw of the technology. And all the I-Ming's purchasers memories are stored in a server. So the CEO of IMING made used of the server to Blackmail people and in the end, Leonard, who suffered from depression because of his Wife cheating on him, turned him in after he had experienced God himself.
The IMing Version 2 was his next invention he was working on. It was to go to the past. Which he found himself in Jerusalem, that's when he saw the miracles Jesus performed. However, Leonard could not be seen by anybody in the past. After looking at the miracles of Jesus and the relationship he had with Simon Peter. He was delighted at the ongoing success of his invention. Returning back to the World, Leonard became an icon, a millionaire and his face was placed on every business magazine. Shortly after that, the news of the negative side effects of IMing was on the news, where apparently someone committed suicide due to shame of having their darkest secrets shown to others through the IMing.
Leonard was furious at his boss for being so hasty to launch the IMing saying that he needed time to go through safety measures but he would not listen. That's when, his wife came in. She saw him at his launches, signing autograph of the IMing but did not went up because she did not want to interfere with his success. She realized that she still loved him despite her mistake in sleeping with another man. She told him outrightly that she was sorry and wanted the relationship to work again.
Leonard was immediately taken aback, confused, as well as furious. He assumed that Suzanne, his wife, was willing to come back to him due to his success and wealth. He rejected her even when she said that she is leaving for Shanghai tonight. He cast her away, telling her that she had betrayed him. After the wife left her wedding ring on the floor and went away, Leonard tried to focus back on his IMing version 2 and came to the point of the Last Supper. There he heard Jesus spoke to the disciples of the breaking of bread and drinking of the wine. After which Simon was concerned with Jesus being so down and out. Jesus replied to Simon that one of them will Betray him tonight. Simon immediately vowed that he would not betray him, but was prophesied by Jesus himself, that he will Deny him 3 times before the cock crows for the morning.
Then they came to the Garden of Gesemany(sorry dunno how to spell), and there Jesus and his disciples prayed. Jesus talk to God about his anxieties and his fear of doing the work of God, after which, he declared that he Will do His Will. That's when Jesus confronted the Roman Soldiers and Judas Iscariot. After which came the passion of the Christ portion. Its too much to write about that. I... dun even want to write that part. Its a scene that has up till today, still touched me alot.
After which Jesus was hung on the cross. "It is FINISHED!" Jesus bellowed. Thats where the scene showed Simon saying sorry and kneeling before the cross where Jesus hung. Leonard Lim saw all this and pointed an accusing finger at Simon. "Why do you betray the one you love! You loved him and yet you still betray him?" Leonard then accidentally fast forwarded the scene to three days later, the part where Peter and the Fisherman went back to fishing. Peter was still in a state of shock and was still mourning over Jesus death. The fisherman had caught nothing. After which, a voice asked if they have fished a catch. That's when they realized Jesus was there, alive and well. Simon Peter came forward and cried out to him for Forgiveness, which Jesus gave it to him, freely, willingly with no grudge and no condemnation. After which the Fisherman were told by Jesus to prepare a feast of celebration. When the fisherman had left. Jesus turned around and spoke, "Leonard."
Leonard was shocked! He could not believe it! Jesus could see him? Confused and surprised, Jesus spoke to him. "Letting go is also a form of forgiveness, Leonard, Let go of your past. Face the future." (Ok it was something like that, I could not remember all the details) Leonard, touched by Jesus unconditional love towards someone that betrays him and even gave forgiveness to him, a second chance to redeem himself. That's when he broke down and cried. Finally, forgiveness entered his heart.
After that, the scene changed to the news reporters stating the arrest of CEO of ISIN, as he was the one blackmailing other people using the IMing. The product was recalled and Leonard Lim took over the ISIN company and renamed it, ILive. His company recently came up with a new invention which he wanted his Wife, Suzanne to be there. As he announced the launch, he declared that he loved his wife and will be with her as he had met a man that has shown him the ropes to forgiveness. So he declared his wife to be married once again. After which, he talked about his new invention. Its called the IVision, it will calculate the Future that you can be by reading the DNA in your body and will enable to make the choice of the person you are suppose to be. Thus life is always about looking forward, to the future you want to create.
Yup its the time where Christians all over the world celebrate the Death of Jesus and Christ and on the Third day, a Sunday, he Rose Again.
So this celebration is 3 days.
Haha... I went for my cell group outing, dun have the photos coz our photographer haven't upload into her computer, yet. Still waiting, maybe I'll post some up here =)
So ya, had fun and after that we went to Subway for Lunch. After that, rushed down to service. Yes, Easter Service with Drama and all that at Expo.
The Drama was pretty COOL! At the start there will be dancers and boy can they dance! It was a mixture of Chinese Kung Fu with Hip Hop and what a performance! After the dance the Drama team started their story. And it was about a guy named Leonard Lim who invented the I-MING, a device that lets you replay your memories. Happy... or Bad memories. That was the flaw of the technology. And all the I-Ming's purchasers memories are stored in a server. So the CEO of IMING made used of the server to Blackmail people and in the end, Leonard, who suffered from depression because of his Wife cheating on him, turned him in after he had experienced God himself.
The IMing Version 2 was his next invention he was working on. It was to go to the past. Which he found himself in Jerusalem, that's when he saw the miracles Jesus performed. However, Leonard could not be seen by anybody in the past. After looking at the miracles of Jesus and the relationship he had with Simon Peter. He was delighted at the ongoing success of his invention. Returning back to the World, Leonard became an icon, a millionaire and his face was placed on every business magazine. Shortly after that, the news of the negative side effects of IMing was on the news, where apparently someone committed suicide due to shame of having their darkest secrets shown to others through the IMing.
Leonard was furious at his boss for being so hasty to launch the IMing saying that he needed time to go through safety measures but he would not listen. That's when, his wife came in. She saw him at his launches, signing autograph of the IMing but did not went up because she did not want to interfere with his success. She realized that she still loved him despite her mistake in sleeping with another man. She told him outrightly that she was sorry and wanted the relationship to work again.
Leonard was immediately taken aback, confused, as well as furious. He assumed that Suzanne, his wife, was willing to come back to him due to his success and wealth. He rejected her even when she said that she is leaving for Shanghai tonight. He cast her away, telling her that she had betrayed him. After the wife left her wedding ring on the floor and went away, Leonard tried to focus back on his IMing version 2 and came to the point of the Last Supper. There he heard Jesus spoke to the disciples of the breaking of bread and drinking of the wine. After which Simon was concerned with Jesus being so down and out. Jesus replied to Simon that one of them will Betray him tonight. Simon immediately vowed that he would not betray him, but was prophesied by Jesus himself, that he will Deny him 3 times before the cock crows for the morning.
Then they came to the Garden of Gesemany(sorry dunno how to spell), and there Jesus and his disciples prayed. Jesus talk to God about his anxieties and his fear of doing the work of God, after which, he declared that he Will do His Will. That's when Jesus confronted the Roman Soldiers and Judas Iscariot. After which came the passion of the Christ portion. Its too much to write about that. I... dun even want to write that part. Its a scene that has up till today, still touched me alot.
After which Jesus was hung on the cross. "It is FINISHED!" Jesus bellowed. Thats where the scene showed Simon saying sorry and kneeling before the cross where Jesus hung. Leonard Lim saw all this and pointed an accusing finger at Simon. "Why do you betray the one you love! You loved him and yet you still betray him?" Leonard then accidentally fast forwarded the scene to three days later, the part where Peter and the Fisherman went back to fishing. Peter was still in a state of shock and was still mourning over Jesus death. The fisherman had caught nothing. After which, a voice asked if they have fished a catch. That's when they realized Jesus was there, alive and well. Simon Peter came forward and cried out to him for Forgiveness, which Jesus gave it to him, freely, willingly with no grudge and no condemnation. After which the Fisherman were told by Jesus to prepare a feast of celebration. When the fisherman had left. Jesus turned around and spoke, "Leonard."
Leonard was shocked! He could not believe it! Jesus could see him? Confused and surprised, Jesus spoke to him. "Letting go is also a form of forgiveness, Leonard, Let go of your past. Face the future." (Ok it was something like that, I could not remember all the details) Leonard, touched by Jesus unconditional love towards someone that betrays him and even gave forgiveness to him, a second chance to redeem himself. That's when he broke down and cried. Finally, forgiveness entered his heart.
After that, the scene changed to the news reporters stating the arrest of CEO of ISIN, as he was the one blackmailing other people using the IMing. The product was recalled and Leonard Lim took over the ISIN company and renamed it, ILive. His company recently came up with a new invention which he wanted his Wife, Suzanne to be there. As he announced the launch, he declared that he loved his wife and will be with her as he had met a man that has shown him the ropes to forgiveness. So he declared his wife to be married once again. After which, he talked about his new invention. Its called the IVision, it will calculate the Future that you can be by reading the DNA in your body and will enable to make the choice of the person you are suppose to be. Thus life is always about looking forward, to the future you want to create.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Shoot the Nuggets!!! Thank you you!!!
Yes blogging at work again.
Just that this job is boring, no doubt about it. Yet the people here are quite friendly. They helped each other out and are all talking mostly in Cantonese so I'm not very communicative with them. LOL! Most the workers here are Malaysian Chinese and thus the canto talk.
Anyway tomorrow is Good Friday! Woot! Planning on going to my cell group outing tomorrow. I can't believe they put me as Group Leader in the games. Means I'll be leading my group and I have NO idea what are the people in my group yet. Suspense is killing me, day by day. LOL!
After the outing most probably will be heading down to Expo for Easter Service. There's gonna be two different services and two different dramas since there is two different church venues. Maybe on Sunday I'll go for the Jurong West church building, just to catch the other drama. I love my church drama team. They really are quite professional in their plays as well as the character they acted.
Ok, now referring to my title. I decided to introduce to you my two animation/visual effects crazy friends. One named Sean and the other Yang Wei. Both of them, are nerds. Lol. But they are best of friends in church because we love the same things! I believe these guys will bring me to the next level of education in Animation and they are good encouragers. Well, Sean is, I do not know about Yang Wei, he's really weird... But oh well, he's part of my cell group.
The reason why Yang Wei is weird... Well, he can't hold a conversation that is linkable... Like you are talking about Kopi(Coffee in Singapore context) and he started talking about the biggest book store. Ya pretty much off topic. And he laughs at his own jokes. No really, he really laughed at his own jokes. But he had his good points as well. He takes study seriously and is currently taking O levels even when he's 21. Yet he still wants to go for the passsion he has for animation. I for one love to deal with both animation as well as storyboarding. Both interested me. He was the one who encouraged through giving me documentaries of The Making of : Final Fantasy Advent Children. He let me see all this exclusive stuff. Grateful for a friend like him haha.
Sean was a technical person. Why? I deduced it from his constant urge to correct others. "Technically, it shouldn't be called a -something- it should be -something-" Just trying to give you the idea. He was somehow related to my family coz apparently, one of his aunt was my mom's friend and I know this coz one Chinese New Year when we went to visit, we saw him there. I was shocked! LOL! So we talked and really treasured the moments together with him.
Actually we were once in the same cell group and I was new to City Harvest. The trouble with cell groups there for me, was that I kept switching cell groups but I still talk to sean and everytime we meet it was a great time. We talked all the latest games, latest technology yup he is like my Computer/technology updater. LOL!
Why shoot the nuggets and Thank you you? Well, they tend to say it like an "OH! DARN!" tat sort of thing. Started from Sean himself den Yang Wei took it after him. Then Thank you you, well, its sort of a Japanese thing. LOL! If Rie's reading this i'm sorry but that's the way we talk about Japanese words. Apparently, sean the technical dude found out that if u direct translate Japanese to english of Arigatou Gozaimas, "the closest thing would be Thank you you." So in future when Yang Wei meets up with Sean they will immediately start breaking out into Jap talk.
Yang Wei: Konichiwa
Sean: Hai Konichiwa
Yang Wei: (starts talking Japanese forgot what he said)
Sean: Wakarimasen
Yang Wei: (said something in Jap to tease him)
Sean: Thank you you ah.
The one thing i like about this company was because the joke was infectious it will make us laugh over and over again. Those are moments I truly cherish.
Just that this job is boring, no doubt about it. Yet the people here are quite friendly. They helped each other out and are all talking mostly in Cantonese so I'm not very communicative with them. LOL! Most the workers here are Malaysian Chinese and thus the canto talk.
Anyway tomorrow is Good Friday! Woot! Planning on going to my cell group outing tomorrow. I can't believe they put me as Group Leader in the games. Means I'll be leading my group and I have NO idea what are the people in my group yet. Suspense is killing me, day by day. LOL!
After the outing most probably will be heading down to Expo for Easter Service. There's gonna be two different services and two different dramas since there is two different church venues. Maybe on Sunday I'll go for the Jurong West church building, just to catch the other drama. I love my church drama team. They really are quite professional in their plays as well as the character they acted.
Ok, now referring to my title. I decided to introduce to you my two animation/visual effects crazy friends. One named Sean and the other Yang Wei. Both of them, are nerds. Lol. But they are best of friends in church because we love the same things! I believe these guys will bring me to the next level of education in Animation and they are good encouragers. Well, Sean is, I do not know about Yang Wei, he's really weird... But oh well, he's part of my cell group.
The reason why Yang Wei is weird... Well, he can't hold a conversation that is linkable... Like you are talking about Kopi(Coffee in Singapore context) and he started talking about the biggest book store. Ya pretty much off topic. And he laughs at his own jokes. No really, he really laughed at his own jokes. But he had his good points as well. He takes study seriously and is currently taking O levels even when he's 21. Yet he still wants to go for the passsion he has for animation. I for one love to deal with both animation as well as storyboarding. Both interested me. He was the one who encouraged through giving me documentaries of The Making of : Final Fantasy Advent Children. He let me see all this exclusive stuff. Grateful for a friend like him haha.
Sean was a technical person. Why? I deduced it from his constant urge to correct others. "Technically, it shouldn't be called a -something- it should be -something-" Just trying to give you the idea. He was somehow related to my family coz apparently, one of his aunt was my mom's friend and I know this coz one Chinese New Year when we went to visit, we saw him there. I was shocked! LOL! So we talked and really treasured the moments together with him.
Actually we were once in the same cell group and I was new to City Harvest. The trouble with cell groups there for me, was that I kept switching cell groups but I still talk to sean and everytime we meet it was a great time. We talked all the latest games, latest technology yup he is like my Computer/technology updater. LOL!
Why shoot the nuggets and Thank you you? Well, they tend to say it like an "OH! DARN!" tat sort of thing. Started from Sean himself den Yang Wei took it after him. Then Thank you you, well, its sort of a Japanese thing. LOL! If Rie's reading this i'm sorry but that's the way we talk about Japanese words. Apparently, sean the technical dude found out that if u direct translate Japanese to english of Arigatou Gozaimas, "the closest thing would be Thank you you." So in future when Yang Wei meets up with Sean they will immediately start breaking out into Jap talk.
Yang Wei: Konichiwa
Sean: Hai Konichiwa
Yang Wei: (starts talking Japanese forgot what he said)
Sean: Wakarimasen
Yang Wei: (said something in Jap to tease him)
Sean: Thank you you ah.
The one thing i like about this company was because the joke was infectious it will make us laugh over and over again. Those are moments I truly cherish.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Sleep blues with money...
Apparently, this few days I have been sleeping WAY past 3am.
Probably coz I was searching how to play some songs and playing it myself. God Bless the Internet and Youtube. After which I will feel sleepy. Yet I still forced myself awake. And then. I AM awake.
Literally, just very awake! I like to call that sort of the state the Lunadrenaline. Ok I made that up on the spot. I use to think it was a state of non-tiredness which this sort of phenomenon only occurs to people who stayed up late.
The moment you reach that sort of state, when you try to sleep on it, it suddenly became quite hard to sleep. Haha...
Well talked to Rie recently, she's doing fine. Haven't seen Gail in AGES! I mean online of course. Haha... So far this are the two "foreigners" which I talk to alot. I just did not know how well we clicked together you know. Its hard to get foreign friends and stay "tight". Ya know wad I mean?
Anyway, my emo self is over. Yesterday had a talk with my mom and had a meal together. We started talking about Credit Cards and what are they for? And what is the theory behind credit cards and why need so many cards on one person. Also discussed how credit card debts are dangerous and its unwise to use Credit cards all the time.
My pastor once said that credit cards are just a convenience for you to not bring any cash and just spend first. He advised us on one way to not get into debt is to pay off whatever you have credited on your card by the end of the month. The moment he said that I know that there are some people in Singapore who like to leave their bills and even FORGOT to pay up. Some even spent like water, a singlish way to put it.
Never incur a debt friends. Once you borrow remember to pay up and pay up asap. Never leave it for too long or else... Its a good practice trust me.
So money talks are over, better get back to work. Yes, i'm working and blogging again! LOL! XD
Maybe I'll write again later... When I'm bored.
Probably coz I was searching how to play some songs and playing it myself. God Bless the Internet and Youtube. After which I will feel sleepy. Yet I still forced myself awake. And then. I AM awake.
Literally, just very awake! I like to call that sort of the state the Lunadrenaline. Ok I made that up on the spot. I use to think it was a state of non-tiredness which this sort of phenomenon only occurs to people who stayed up late.
The moment you reach that sort of state, when you try to sleep on it, it suddenly became quite hard to sleep. Haha...
Well talked to Rie recently, she's doing fine. Haven't seen Gail in AGES! I mean online of course. Haha... So far this are the two "foreigners" which I talk to alot. I just did not know how well we clicked together you know. Its hard to get foreign friends and stay "tight". Ya know wad I mean?
Anyway, my emo self is over. Yesterday had a talk with my mom and had a meal together. We started talking about Credit Cards and what are they for? And what is the theory behind credit cards and why need so many cards on one person. Also discussed how credit card debts are dangerous and its unwise to use Credit cards all the time.
My pastor once said that credit cards are just a convenience for you to not bring any cash and just spend first. He advised us on one way to not get into debt is to pay off whatever you have credited on your card by the end of the month. The moment he said that I know that there are some people in Singapore who like to leave their bills and even FORGOT to pay up. Some even spent like water, a singlish way to put it.
Never incur a debt friends. Once you borrow remember to pay up and pay up asap. Never leave it for too long or else... Its a good practice trust me.
So money talks are over, better get back to work. Yes, i'm working and blogging again! LOL! XD
Maybe I'll write again later... When I'm bored.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
The long road...
The worst news always happen when you're the happiest.
Here I am, working and thinking I'll be able to get over NS and finally do the things I want to do.
That's when, my results showed up.
It was the Forth day ever since I have received my results. I could not believe it. I failed a module... Now my life is in a mess. I feel as if, one semester or half of my years are gone just like that. Appealing can only gimme a chance to pass. But if it fails, I still have to go through the whole semester again!!!
I am so lost, so helpless. Even if God is there, He could probably feel my anxiety and frustration from my own brain. I did not blame Him you know. God is always faithful, there's a reason why he opened Biotechnology for me when I put it in my choice. I learnt a bit more of Life as a scientist and how it is not for me after all. The reason why I liked science was because there was always something new in my secondary syllabus and my teacher was a good teacher.
Anyway, its going to be a long road for me. My whole life has been taking long roads. Why is that so I wonder. And the longer the road lies before me, the longer it takes to reach my destination.
Come to think of it, this long road reminds me of the dream I had when I was in Poly year 2. I had a dream of me waking up to a lot of lightning and thunder. After which I began to see myself flaoting over my house and I saw the terrain changed before me, with ground cracking and the lightning still flashed. After which there was a blinding light. That's when I found myself looking at the ceiling.
Then I got up again. I'm definately not in my house. The walls were white and the bed I lay was quite comfortable. I got out of the room and entered through the door next to the bed. There was my Dad, old, but energetic, playing his guitar to a bunch of people. As if he was leading a cell group into worship. I could not hear the music but I saw him look up and me, eyes shining with delight.
When I turned, I saw my mom, but thats all i remembered about my mom. I just saw her smiling at me, with white hair of course. Then, I saw my bro emerge from another door. He was strikingly good-looking. And he was about my age, about 18 - 20 years old. He also smiled at me. Den I saw at the other end of the living room, there was a mirror. I began to walk up to it. I wanted to look at how I looked like. That's when. I woke up, coz my mom shook me awake.
I did not even caught a glimpse of myself... well, maybe just the eyes. One eye. Brown and it seemed sparking. I remember putting on smiles when I see my father and mother so happy. Along with my Brother. I have never had such a dream that felt so real. That's cause, when I woke up, I feel so energetic, better than any other sleep I had.
Oh well, I just thought about sharing my dream I had. I haven't forgotten it. I have always wondered how would I look like. And If my bro was 20 years old there, I should be 28 years old. And with one eye that shows energy... i wonder how I looked like. I never know. But one thing's for sure, i wanted that dream to happen. To come to past. I do not know what house was that, but i wanna know whether if its deja vu when the time comes. I hope to see it happen.
Wishful thinking I know. Yet I long for it to happen. Weird huh...
Here I am, working and thinking I'll be able to get over NS and finally do the things I want to do.
That's when, my results showed up.
It was the Forth day ever since I have received my results. I could not believe it. I failed a module... Now my life is in a mess. I feel as if, one semester or half of my years are gone just like that. Appealing can only gimme a chance to pass. But if it fails, I still have to go through the whole semester again!!!
I am so lost, so helpless. Even if God is there, He could probably feel my anxiety and frustration from my own brain. I did not blame Him you know. God is always faithful, there's a reason why he opened Biotechnology for me when I put it in my choice. I learnt a bit more of Life as a scientist and how it is not for me after all. The reason why I liked science was because there was always something new in my secondary syllabus and my teacher was a good teacher.
Anyway, its going to be a long road for me. My whole life has been taking long roads. Why is that so I wonder. And the longer the road lies before me, the longer it takes to reach my destination.
Come to think of it, this long road reminds me of the dream I had when I was in Poly year 2. I had a dream of me waking up to a lot of lightning and thunder. After which I began to see myself flaoting over my house and I saw the terrain changed before me, with ground cracking and the lightning still flashed. After which there was a blinding light. That's when I found myself looking at the ceiling.
Then I got up again. I'm definately not in my house. The walls were white and the bed I lay was quite comfortable. I got out of the room and entered through the door next to the bed. There was my Dad, old, but energetic, playing his guitar to a bunch of people. As if he was leading a cell group into worship. I could not hear the music but I saw him look up and me, eyes shining with delight.
When I turned, I saw my mom, but thats all i remembered about my mom. I just saw her smiling at me, with white hair of course. Then, I saw my bro emerge from another door. He was strikingly good-looking. And he was about my age, about 18 - 20 years old. He also smiled at me. Den I saw at the other end of the living room, there was a mirror. I began to walk up to it. I wanted to look at how I looked like. That's when. I woke up, coz my mom shook me awake.
I did not even caught a glimpse of myself... well, maybe just the eyes. One eye. Brown and it seemed sparking. I remember putting on smiles when I see my father and mother so happy. Along with my Brother. I have never had such a dream that felt so real. That's cause, when I woke up, I feel so energetic, better than any other sleep I had.
Oh well, I just thought about sharing my dream I had. I haven't forgotten it. I have always wondered how would I look like. And If my bro was 20 years old there, I should be 28 years old. And with one eye that shows energy... i wonder how I looked like. I never know. But one thing's for sure, i wanted that dream to happen. To come to past. I do not know what house was that, but i wanna know whether if its deja vu when the time comes. I hope to see it happen.
Wishful thinking I know. Yet I long for it to happen. Weird huh...
Piano and Friends...
Its been awhile since I last blogged. These few days I was rather busy, with work and all that.
Alright ok so I am busy with work, but guess what, I am blogging from my workplace! Shhhh! Don't tell anyone. This job was not so bad, paid at 8 smackeroos per hour from 9am-6pm, Monday to Friday, and its packaged with free lunch, I'll say its not bad.
What job it is? Well... I'm not too sure about the position, but I'm suppose to be doing Credit Transactions or something for this Hotel named, Holiday Inn Atrium Singapore. I've worked there before, same old Finance Department. But the previous job I do not understand what was I doing, so i stopped after three weeks. Trust me, I do not want to talk about it. The job describtion that is. But the place there was friendly, though most of the time, they just did their own thing, which made me, lonely somehow. I wish my job won't be in this sort of field. I mean, I do not mind being alone, but what's the point of being alone and not doing what I like?
Anyway, I should touch on my above title. Yes, you saw the word Piano. Indeed, I have made my mind to learn Piano, FINALLY. Yea, I'm 20 years old so what? "You won't make it one. Doing animation and Piano at the same time." Who said that? My friend of mine.
I know he was being realistic. I was thinking that perhaps I can learn Piano and Animation at the same time. It's gonna be physically tiring and emotionally draining depending on the situation. The thing is, Hardwork has never really crossed my vocabulary most of the time. I wish I had, but I found out I'm more hardworking in watching shows, listening to music, playing music and just seeing art move in front of my eyes. I guess its also coz when I was young, I have been watching cartoons( and neglect my studies of course).
Still, I finally want to take the chance to prove myself, hardworking in the field I like, and here, my friend put me down straight away you know. Usually, he will mellow down before telling me, "Its not going to be easy." But nooooooooooo. He had to instantly throw me into the fire. "You won't make it one! Coz you're doing both ANIMATION(he emphasized on it) and PIANO. Piano is not easy. You do not know how hard it is to master piano."
Dude. I GOT A BROTHER AT HOME WHO PRACTICES PIANO! WHO SAYS I CAN'T SEE!!! WHO SAYS I DUNNO HOW HARD IT CAN BE! IT IS!!! Sorry just had to get that out. I am quite pissed at the remark. Of course I did not say that to him. I kinda hurt him too you know coz he always like to give this sort of remark.
Me: "You are always like that, can't you just support me for once."
Friend: "Thats the thing about you, you everytime won't admit your mistakes." (what mistakes???) My thoughts.
Friend(cont): "Next time you go army you sure die one. You give this sort of attitude."
He may say like that, but he's my best friend. I will never let him go. I mean, when you have friendships, its best that you treasure the once that are closes to you. Never let them go, even though sometimes they can be a jerk too. Still this friend of mine, always kept me in check. To be a realistic thinker and not just fantasize my way through.
But my desire for piano is strong. I have been holding back since Secondary School, its time i start things that I want to do. For the past years, I have been going with my mum's direction coz I do not want to upset her anymore. (which I had when I was a child) I want to still honour my mom, despite of me complaining of her. I search within myself, and I still love her, even if she is naggy and tend to talk most of the time about money. But that's just her. Her personality is a clear Gold and Green. That's why we conflicted alot. Blue and Orange you know. Both sides of the colour.
I do not know what my future holds, whether I will start a family or not, its up to God. However, I won't know if music and animation is my direction unless I tried.
Well anyway, my friend and I said sorry to one another. There is sure to be a void for now. At least we apologized quickly. I will never lose this friend of mine. I never want to.
Alright ok so I am busy with work, but guess what, I am blogging from my workplace! Shhhh! Don't tell anyone. This job was not so bad, paid at 8 smackeroos per hour from 9am-6pm, Monday to Friday, and its packaged with free lunch, I'll say its not bad.
What job it is? Well... I'm not too sure about the position, but I'm suppose to be doing Credit Transactions or something for this Hotel named, Holiday Inn Atrium Singapore. I've worked there before, same old Finance Department. But the previous job I do not understand what was I doing, so i stopped after three weeks. Trust me, I do not want to talk about it. The job describtion that is. But the place there was friendly, though most of the time, they just did their own thing, which made me, lonely somehow. I wish my job won't be in this sort of field. I mean, I do not mind being alone, but what's the point of being alone and not doing what I like?
Anyway, I should touch on my above title. Yes, you saw the word Piano. Indeed, I have made my mind to learn Piano, FINALLY. Yea, I'm 20 years old so what? "You won't make it one. Doing animation and Piano at the same time." Who said that? My friend of mine.
I know he was being realistic. I was thinking that perhaps I can learn Piano and Animation at the same time. It's gonna be physically tiring and emotionally draining depending on the situation. The thing is, Hardwork has never really crossed my vocabulary most of the time. I wish I had, but I found out I'm more hardworking in watching shows, listening to music, playing music and just seeing art move in front of my eyes. I guess its also coz when I was young, I have been watching cartoons( and neglect my studies of course).
Still, I finally want to take the chance to prove myself, hardworking in the field I like, and here, my friend put me down straight away you know. Usually, he will mellow down before telling me, "Its not going to be easy." But nooooooooooo. He had to instantly throw me into the fire. "You won't make it one! Coz you're doing both ANIMATION(he emphasized on it) and PIANO. Piano is not easy. You do not know how hard it is to master piano."
Dude. I GOT A BROTHER AT HOME WHO PRACTICES PIANO! WHO SAYS I CAN'T SEE!!! WHO SAYS I DUNNO HOW HARD IT CAN BE! IT IS!!! Sorry just had to get that out. I am quite pissed at the remark. Of course I did not say that to him. I kinda hurt him too you know coz he always like to give this sort of remark.
Me: "You are always like that, can't you just support me for once."
Friend: "Thats the thing about you, you everytime won't admit your mistakes." (what mistakes???) My thoughts.
Friend(cont): "Next time you go army you sure die one. You give this sort of attitude."
He may say like that, but he's my best friend. I will never let him go. I mean, when you have friendships, its best that you treasure the once that are closes to you. Never let them go, even though sometimes they can be a jerk too. Still this friend of mine, always kept me in check. To be a realistic thinker and not just fantasize my way through.
But my desire for piano is strong. I have been holding back since Secondary School, its time i start things that I want to do. For the past years, I have been going with my mum's direction coz I do not want to upset her anymore. (which I had when I was a child) I want to still honour my mom, despite of me complaining of her. I search within myself, and I still love her, even if she is naggy and tend to talk most of the time about money. But that's just her. Her personality is a clear Gold and Green. That's why we conflicted alot. Blue and Orange you know. Both sides of the colour.
I do not know what my future holds, whether I will start a family or not, its up to God. However, I won't know if music and animation is my direction unless I tried.
Well anyway, my friend and I said sorry to one another. There is sure to be a void for now. At least we apologized quickly. I will never lose this friend of mine. I never want to.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Peacemaker Chronicles: The Dragoon Tales
Written by: Caleb Phua
Prologue
Her perspiration flows from her head to her mouth. It’s salty, she thought as she faced a horde of Acolytes, magic gathering in their fingers. Aleia held her sword closely. It glittered in against the light of the fires surrounding her. Tents were burned down, an occasional clash of metal could be heard nearby and strewn all over the floor, are bodies of men and demon minions.
One Acolyte licked his lips and thrust his palm at her. The rest follow suit.
“Die! And never rise again!” He croaked as a mixture of magic spells came towards her. She kept herself cool despite her situation. She breathed in and summon forth her Haru, a will energy.
“Whisper, Silence of the wind, I command thee!” She circled her sword one round around her, forming a barrier. Then, IMPACT! All the Acolytes were laughing at their victory.
“A puny shield like that can’t stop us.” As the smoke cleared, Aleia was gone. All the acolytes were puzzled.
“There’s no body? That can’t be right, my hex is a poison one. Didn’t you all hear what I telepathed you?” That’s when a sword protruded out of the speaker’s chest.
“Yea you did right.” Aleia pulled out her sword and the acolyte crumpled to the floor. She turned to the rest of the Acolytes. “Whisper here however, is not an ordinary sword with low magic properties, like all of your spells.” She can sense the fear in their looks and their desperation to cast a spell. Smirking she charged at them and slayed them all before they could lift a finger to cast another spell.
“Aleia!” called out one of the soldiers in battle. He pointed at the top of the hill where the Podium of Power was located. There Dark Lord Saliviant was raising his sword for the final opening of the key.
She muttered a spell and she was instantly teleported to the Podium. Without hesitation, Aleia attacked the Dark Lord and was forced to pary. Saliviant grinned and used the other hand to force a impact spell to Aleia. She was hit by it, yet most of the damage was nullified and she hacked at him again without flinching.
“I see, you hold Whisper.” Saliviant was forced to use both hands on his double-edged sword.
“And you hold the dark blade, Zephyr.” Aleia grunted as she forced the sword lock away. Saliviant was knockback by the sudden movement. Aleia came in for the killing swipe, yet her blade connected with a wing-like shield. She looked up to see the Dragon.
“Black-scar?” She gasped as one of its Talons knocked her to one side. Even with Whisper’s magic, it was not enough to block a magical creatures blow.
Saliviant was laughing at the predicament Aleia’s in.
“You, princess of Tenacia, hot-headed warrior, the Red Flash. That’s what my minions called you.” Saliviant walked towards her crumpled body.
“Where is your friend? The Peacemaker, that you so dearly love.” He raised his arms in question. That’s when he saw a bright blue light from above him.
“EAT THIS SALIVIANT!” A young voice bellowed. FOOM! BAM! The force of a bright magical blue light struck where Saliviant stood. Again, a wing of the dragon covered him. However, at where the wing was hit, it was smoking.
Saliviant’s eyes grew wide with glee. “You finally came, PEACEMAKER!
Too many things to do!!!!
I know i know,
Its the HOLIDAYS! Whats there to do? Well... I have been writing incomplete music so far. And I still do not know the gist of writing it!
But hey, i'm still trying, not going to give up. This sort of thing is new to me, I'm sure to be awkward by it. Anyway, I accept that study, is definately better than work. And this word "work"
here, is not my career path. Its just a JOB.
I have been working only for three days, one day service, two day cashier. Well... Its the cashier job that is rather taxing. It practically nearly used up all my mental energy! I mean we do not just holler orders to the kitchen, but we have to prepare the food, "ta-bao" must also do. In fact the cashier i felt, its the worst position in that area. You are practically MULTI-TASKING all the time.
However, I may complain about the work, so why did i choose this job? Btw its just a store in "FOOD JUNCTION". Well one thing was, I work with this people before. I have never met the nicest and most friendly staff ever. The kitchen people will sometimes cook up something and give my snacks to eat. In fact, they give loads of snacks.
I get to meet people, though i'm still not that good with the cashier stuff, but i still like to see new faces. And boy, their faces, are sort of dark and gloomy when they give their money. Yet when they are satisfied, its good to see the smile on their faces and the "thank yous" they give you.
Well, then enough about my job. I have just finished writing my Prologue of the story. So look out for it!
Its the HOLIDAYS! Whats there to do? Well... I have been writing incomplete music so far. And I still do not know the gist of writing it!
But hey, i'm still trying, not going to give up. This sort of thing is new to me, I'm sure to be awkward by it. Anyway, I accept that study, is definately better than work. And this word "work"
here, is not my career path. Its just a JOB.
I have been working only for three days, one day service, two day cashier. Well... Its the cashier job that is rather taxing. It practically nearly used up all my mental energy! I mean we do not just holler orders to the kitchen, but we have to prepare the food, "ta-bao" must also do. In fact the cashier i felt, its the worst position in that area. You are practically MULTI-TASKING all the time.
However, I may complain about the work, so why did i choose this job? Btw its just a store in "FOOD JUNCTION". Well one thing was, I work with this people before. I have never met the nicest and most friendly staff ever. The kitchen people will sometimes cook up something and give my snacks to eat. In fact, they give loads of snacks.
I get to meet people, though i'm still not that good with the cashier stuff, but i still like to see new faces. And boy, their faces, are sort of dark and gloomy when they give their money. Yet when they are satisfied, its good to see the smile on their faces and the "thank yous" they give you.
Well, then enough about my job. I have just finished writing my Prologue of the story. So look out for it!
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