As I step into SOT, God has shown me multiple ways to overcome my Sin behaviour but there was no other way to break the Sin Factory. But it was all thanks to the Word of God that was shared in Song of Solomon. That was my first Encounter.
I can remember hearing the Holy Spirit to act on my Sin of Impurity. I was involved in Sexual Sin of a kind that I have harboured within me for many years. One that tormented my mind, and even gave me a huge difficulty to overcome. It had such a terrible hold on my life. I felt hopeless and was not free. No matter how the Word was preached, I did my best to stop such deeds, but it was no use. Until the process started from the bible Study of the Book of Song of Solomon.
Pastor Kong preached something that I was totally into it. That is to live a life of a mature believer, to have the Holy Spirit literally as your companion. I wanted that. I wanted it so badly, that as I was told what the Holy Spirit liked in a believer is to have PURITY. I was immediately convicted in my heart. That one day, I really cried out to God, I felt Him, as I kneel before His Presence, I was totally overwhelmed with "Godly Sorrow" for what I have done.
As what was described in 2 Cor 7:10-13 (Found out about this during one of my recent bible reading.)
10 For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces death. 11 For observe this very thing, that you sorrowed in a godly manner: What diligence it produced in you, what clearing of yourselves, whatindignation, what fear, what vehement desire, what zeal, what vindication! In all things you proved yourselves to be clear in this matter. 12 Therefore, although I wrote to you, I did notdo it for the sake of him who had done the wrong, nor for the sake of him who suffered wrong, but that our care for you in the sight of God might appear to you.
Indeed. It has cleared myself. I remember the experience...
As my tears kept flowing, the amount of anguish I released towards wanting to have a change of heart and mind, I would have never known that God planned it in a way that was a series of encounters for me.
First the Holy Spirit gave me a vision of what to do about my Sin behaviour, and a vision of why there was such torment in my life regarding the issue of Sexual Sin. I saw it and immediately knew the problem... it was Keeping a Secret to my parents and to the people I love. I needed to Confess to my Parents, and even to my Cell Group Leader...
It was actually a hard thing for me to do. But I was all ready to give it up. I confessed my sin, in every single detail. What have I done. Who have I hurt. Where was the area of act. When did it happen. And after describing the whole thing. Ask for Forgiveness towards the person with all sincerity and brokeness... Humility.
I did the same to my cell group leader. What I have done was, I was being accountable to my actions and to admit that it was a huge mistake on my part and it has got nothing to do with whether I was young when it happen. A sin is a sin.
It did not just Break totally, but I know it was a start. As we went through Pst Ming's lesson on the Gifts of the Holy Spirit, it was a time of action. Where we are introduced to the Kingdom of God and the Kingdom of Satan.... This is not the end btw.
