Revelation, through relatives

It has been 2 months ever since my aunt gave me a counselling session.

I was really at my lowest and most frustrated self. Why is it I just could not feel happy? I have been feeling that I was a hypocrite all my poly life. It was just frustrating, pretending to be someone I'm not. I guess that is why, I felt so down and out.

But my aunt has let me see the light. Somehow, I just felt that God just gave a divine intervention from my aunt. As I talked to her, she gave me some wise insights about talents and abilities. Sure, my church may preached about it but sometimes, we just do not know how to go about Walking the Talk.
My aunt asked me questions like, "Do you prefer to be in the office or around people", for this question, my answer was immediate, its to be around people. Her next question was "what do you like to do if there were no restrictions. I answered quickly and with great confidence. I even explained my plan if i ever get in the course. I even have a back-up plan in case it fails, and none of them were related to science. "There, that's what you should have been doing instead of Life-science, you already have a plan for it." The moment she said that sentence, my world of hypocrisy was torn away.

I have always believed that I was in the wrong course, yet i was just too afraid to change course, but now, after 3 years being stuck in life-science I was sick and tired of it. I have decided that the moment I graduate, I am going to pursue what I like the most. Also I would like to get a job to earn the necessary money for the course.

I won't reveal what I would like to do as now I am in transition of deciding which course should I go to. Yet at the same time, I know i have to graduate in order to go to the next step. Well, I decide to just earn money first, and then, I have the whole of NS to think about my next path in life.

My aunt shared an interesting concept to me afterwards which is about finding a job that matches with your personality, I shall blog that probably my next free time. Not sure when is that though... But just keep in touch guys.

A NEW YEAR... A NEW HOPE!!!

I believe, its time I reintroduce myself.

From the past, I have seen how immature I was.
It has been a struggle to stay in the Biotech course I was taking. I have been struggling ever since first year. I had always thought that being in Biotechnology, I can have a better JOB. And better PAY. This is what happens, when you kena psyco by parents and other people.

So i have lived a life for the past 2 years, a life of low self-esteem. Yet I am grateful, that near the end of the year 2007, my aunt came, or rather God, came to rescue me, through my aunt.
She came at the most opportune time of my Life where I felt that Life has no meaning whatsoever and I worry about my future.

My aunt, named Meei Eng, counseled me. She is a very established part-time counselors and the questions she asked are, provoked me to find my inner voice. I begin to answer her questions and found that, I had the answer all along. The answer to my problems and even my goals and plans for it, I already had it! Its because I have been in this circumstance for too long that i failed to see my calling.

Now, the year is 2008. I can happily declare that I have my self-esteem ready, as what pastor Kong preached last sunday. Now the hurdle I have left is to find a focus in my course of studies which will ulimately lead me to the CAREER of my life. not a JOB.

Let this new year be a new hope to all my friends and relatives. Let this new year be the year of changes and let this year be the next journey for God's divine encounter.