Welcome to the Next Phase...

Sometimes I just can't believe I'm turning 20. I mean, whats up with that? I still feel uncomfortable when kids called me "Uncle", I mean I know I have to soon put up with it, but its uncalled for! I'm 20 doesn't mean I'm super old and you call me "Uncle". Sheesh...

Yup I've re painted my whole blog. I prefer painting it then find some fancy design or layout, this suits just fine to me. Well, ya the main reason is I do not know how to operate the background settings and all that layout settings. I rather stick with something simple.

So why did I do it a little Gothic style? I feel that I have reach a crossroad in my life right now. I've just received news that my Common Test 2 is coming and my BTN Exam is in AUGUST! I was like WHAT? My NS enlistment was September!!! But yea I need to pass my BTN and the reason why the School letter stated October to be the time to differ to is because the exam results will be out by then. So yea, I can't go in yet until I'm sure its all over and done with.

I need to buck up on my studies and have to STOP procrastinating in my project and assignments! Dangerously close to the deadline too. I better do something about it. Its the time to endure the Valleys of the Shadow of Death. Yup, Valleys with a 'S' at the back. Right after this BTN Exam, theres still the NAPFA test to take if I can take. Also there is the dreaded NS! A Huge Valley with little Valleys inside. After NS, theres still the decision to make a direction in Animation as in where to go in.

So many Valleys to go through. But its time to fight through it. There are other things I wish to complete before I go for BMT. To finish my first book on the Dragoon War Chronicles. Here come the days that a boy will turn into a man... Hopefully. =)

A Great Disappointment... Games of Life...

Really, its not the best time this week for me either.

I've just ended my Guitar course, yup, quit it. Why? No money... Simple as that. Had to cancel it. Got so psyched up for nothing. I mean here I am naming a blog that I am Living the Dream. Probably now comes the Nightmare. Reality hits really hard on me this time round and its winning.
I like to do a bit of an analogy over here. Recently I read a magazine article called GameAxis. The Editor wrote something about games being the next generation and why is it that people, especially Singaporeans, had a rather negative view on it. But I'm not going to debate about that, tired of explaining myself. Maybe some other time I will post on it... For now... I want to say that right now, we are playing the Game called Life. Nope not the board game, the real life action game.

I like to think that right now, we are in a very Huge RPG world and we are the players. No NPC's are involve in selling and all that, the only NPC's will be demons and angels. To beat the game? Well, live life to the fullest, the pursuit for happiness as well as the fulfillment of a well lived life. In deed, its quite hard to be the top 10 ranking in your field of work. You got to deal with parents trouble, lecturer's/teacher's obstacles and financial problems. Solving them is your power, as well as developing something new. Its the game of ultimate proportions. In every game, there is always a villain for this case? The Devil.

I like to imagine the Devil casting Status ailments on me. I need help from the outside to cure me from all abnormalities. These are your party members who will guide you and of course, you choose the party. After having a party you will start to consider which town do you think you can take over. But God has equipped us with the sword of the spirit and armor of righteous nous. We are able to defend more into focus. Anyway, i'll talk more tml, tired.

Another personality test!

What Clement Caleb Phua Zhen Jie Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Choices and Regrets...

You know, its not easy to make choices, cause every choice always comes with regrets.

Looking back, the choices I have made, I really regretted most of the choices. Last time, I always took the negative approach, always dwelling on "If only I can go back in time and just change it, everything would be better."

I guess that's how the idea of Time Traveling came to most people. I still think like that, I can't help it! However, I do not "dwell" on it for too long. I mean, this sort of thing kind of waste your time, yet it bears a certain "hurt" as you go through life.

I have been having one of those times. I mean, my mom came to lecture me once again. "This is REALITY, you can't always think of a life of happily ever after. This is the world we live in." Of course she did not say that, I just place it in a way we can understand what she was trying to tell me. I asked her if she knew the way I think and that was her answer. "You like to watch shows that tells you that everything is alright." What's wrong with that? I thought "You always think you can do things just like how the film world says." I belief she did not understand why movies existed. But thats not the point. The point that struck my core was "All this will not happen. Its just fantasy."

I can't believe that. I'm sorry.

I'm not saying bad about my mom. She cares for me, a lot, maybe too much. She tells things straight to the point and lives her life in Reality. The reason why we tend to quarrel over certain issues and even minor issues is basically how she "kills" the dream by not supporting you. I know its for my good. All mom's do the best for their own children's good.

Now, I am officially on my own... Working for my own money, my own allowance, my own education for the future. Its hard. Oh, there's still my dental payment to pay for. I have to pay it. I kept thinking the amount of debts I carry towards my mom and I really do not have any self-esteem, I don't love myself anymore. All I see is the dark looming debts, the huge wave of anxiety plus the burdens were tripled by work and working life.

I realize my self-esteem will always stay down unless someone acknowledges me for who I am. I am childish, not hardworking, not the best looking guy in whatever social group I'm in. I am not spiritually strong, I am sensitive to dust and other small particles that like to get in my nose and throat. My bad habits are basically rubbing my nose, biting nails, i mean someone commented on me being unhygienic in the workplace. Well I am who I am, and I'm easily bullied because I'm naive, too goody two shoes, always a dork in other people's sight.

Sure cell group I can be myself, but sometimes, when I play the guitar, I feel the emptiness, I feel something was missing, it was not the presence of God that was missing. Its the love that I had. Its somehow gone, perverted. Simply I have no talent. Some people said I have, I say, I really do not have.

This is probably the most emo post I'm doing, but I'm going to put it up. Why? Because I want you to know, how some people think. This was my thinking last week, until Saturday when cell group changed the atmosphere.

Then monday, something bad happened again. The blow was heavy, had to cry it out... But in the end, I still came out strong. Not by my strength, but by your strength, Father. By the way, if this post scared you... I'm sorry, its just the way it was... Had to let that out.

By the way, watched Drillbit Taylor last night, great show I give it 3.5/5 overall, but the morals it teach? 4/5.

The Popcorn Slammer Times

That's right, I shall officially release the Popcorn Slammer Times. Its basically me, writing about movies so if you ever see the PST you know its time for movie review talks.

So for the first issue of PST! I have watched The Mist. It was Fantabulously scary.

Actually its not a horror movie, but its more like a thriller. It touches on the Psychological thinking of men when it comes to survival in dire situations. The Mist touches on, well, a mist that suddenly engulfs a little town which recently had a huge storm. The main character was David Drayton, an artist. He had brought his boy and his neighbor out to the grocer's to get some food for the aftermath of the storm and that store was really crowded.

Along the way to the store, the army trucks passed by and David started mentioning about the Arrowhead Project the army were working on and how mysterious it was that so many were posted there. Then when they were queuing at the store, all of a sudden a guy runs up in the street with blood on his nose and started screaming "DON'T GO INTO THE MIST!" Some people ran out of the store because their cars are out there, however the mysterious mist was so fast that it enveloped the whole store but the mist did not enter the store. However, the danger of the mist was why there were people screaming the moment they enter the mist.

So David was stuck in the store along with his son. His wife was near the lake where they first witnessed the mist and thought nothing about it. Which he dread for the worse the moment this mist came and took lives. Now surrounded by the mist, the people in the store were trapped and had to survive weird monsters and creatures as they invade the store one by one. The thrills is also when some had to get out of the store to get to just the nearby pharmacy. Indeed its something worth to watch. I can't say more or i will just make this review more confusing. Watch it for yourself.

In deed you can give Stephen King another round of applause for making a book so scary that it just had to made it on film. By the way, Stephen King is a Thriller Dude. I guess thats why i did not read much of his books. But movies derived from his books? I can handle it.

Rating is 5/5 Very good acting and plot.

Rihanna - Take A Bow |Official Music Video|

Guys this is Rihanna's new hit. It's a rather sad song, but from the lyrics you can tell that this song is all about anguish due to relationship problems. But other than the behind story, enjoy the music and arrangement of Rihanna. =)

Old Movies Reviews... Meet the Robinsons, Happy Feet

Yup already old movies I know.

For some of you who have not watch it, pls do yourselves a favor and go and watch it. Whether you rent it, download it or borrow it so long as you do not steal it. These two movies I have watched over my Malaysia trip with my family. Ya, I stay up late a bit la to watch. Anyway, Meet the Robinson's was one of the best story told by Disney in 3D animation. Last time, Disney did Chicken Little, which was seriously very good too! Story was well plotted and so was the suspense created in the 3D environment. Guess what, Disney did it again! It was not Pixar's team that did Meet the Robinson's.

So Meet the Robinson's tells of an orphan boy, abandoned by his mother who placed him at the Orphanage entrance. It was how he became an inventor. A boy with an active imagination and would work towards his inventions. He decided one day to find his mom by using a machine that can see the memories of the past. He started to design it. After many attempts he did it and went to the science fair to produce his work but it failed. The machine blew up in smokes. Disappointed, the boy was met up with a weird boy named Wilbur who confessed he was from the future and that a man in a bowler hat sabotage his experiment. That was when the wild ride begins.

I'm going to stop here. Because here is really where it gets crazy. See how this boy and Wilbur get out of trouble. Meeting Wilbur's family which was the Robinson's. The twist in the story was a very good one. It was well thought of, well plotted, lots of quirky jokes and situational jokes. A mix of emotions are in the movie. The characters were believable and well modelled. All I can say is... PLEASE! Do not miss out on this movie. Those friends of mine who want the movie, can get it from me. Please come to me directly if you want it.

Happy Feet. Was the BEST ANIMATED Penguin Movie I have ever seen! The story was GREAT! A bit cheesy at the ending part, but all in all, the dance the singing it was all worth it! The story of how Mumble the only Penguin who cannot sing, but was replaced with a new gift. That's right, the other side of expression of music, which is, DANCE. Blessed by this gift, watch as how Mumble Saves his penguin community. Its one heck of a ride trust me.

Meet the Robinson's Rating = 4.5/5

Happy Feet = 4.5/5

Guitar to the Next Level!

Alright folks, I officially announced I'm having guitar lessons from now on, on a Wednesday Evening!

The place was at Haogang, North-east of Singapore. Near to IMH. Yup, it is near one of my friends house(Huiqi). Anyway, I today I went there and boy his house was rather big. When he came to greet me, Jimmy was still as robust and energetic as I have first met him. He then got about to start with my pick holding and working up to asking me to strum the Chord Rules. I can't tell you much coz I am paying for his course and also, I am not masterful at what he taught. I know "masterful" is not a word. Anyways, I have been taught some scales and he showed me what the scales are. They were actually notes in a family key that you can use to SOLO! WOW!

If I master that, I really can solo in the middle of my songs! THATS FANTASTIC!!! Perhaps its time i really got serious about it. I was given homework too, 30 songs I need to submit to him that I know I can play. He does not care if its pop songs, Chinese songs, Christian songs... He is a Christian himself actually. He plays for his Church. Other than that I need to perfect my fingering. I'm going to set aside 2 hours everyday to practice man.

I hope to be able to show him that I can be a great student to him so that we can move along nicely. Hope to extract from him as many techniques as possible. LOL!

Movie Fest

Today, was a movie fest day for me.

I've downloaded and watched Rocky Balboa, Rambo the latest one, Spiderwick Chronicles and The Sixth Sense.

Out of all these movies I have watched? The best is the last two. The first two did not gave me an impact. I was expecting Rocky to be more Punchy then the Dog. But he didn't give a knock out. LOL! Rambo? Well, its Sylvester Stallone again and sure, like Rambo always does. Always shoot his way out and people get drilled by mounted machine guns fired by our huge friend.

The last two, really place a lasting impression.

Spiderwick Chronicles was my kind of thing. Fantasy fights, ingenuity by merging the Faeries world with the Real World. It was amazing. Great animation of the animals and monsters. The plot was well thought out. I expected more, and they did gave more. It was a story worth telling and thats the thing about Fantasy movies, you cannot think logically, I mean, you can to solve certain puzzles, but you also have to think out of the box of the world.

In fantasy, you cannot be so uptight and think every thing's going to be logical. I know some friends who cannot enjoy a Fantasy movie, all because they said "Its not logical." or "Why must he fight the goblins for a last stand. Just throw one grenade all die already ma!" The thing is, what if your normal weapons do not work on such creatures. Even if it did, they probably have magic to outsmart you. That's where they go, "Magic? That's stupid." I warn you people who are reading this blog. Please do not be like these people. I mean, the reason why you watch a Fantasy movie is because you want to get into that world for just an hour and a half! So loosen up!

But for Spiderwick? I give a 5 out of 5 rating.

However the best of the Best i have ever seen so far is The Sixth Sense by M.Night Shayamalan. This guy, is a genius in directing this type of shows. I mean, who would think of such stuff! Bruce Willis is a great actor for this movie, along with that boy(FORGOT HIS NAME! But he acted in Artificial Intelligence) This show was THE best MIND-BLOWING show ever! I mean the plot was well planned. The whole story was engaging and not boring at all. Suspense was always there always lingering in your head and provoking you, because this show is about the mind. Wow. Not many directors take that direction. Even I sometimes think how do I make a movie that really blows people minds, my answer is always, its hard.

This movie i give an outstanding rating of 6/5, MUST WATCH! DOWNLOAD IF YOU MUST! WORTH IT IF YOU BOUGHT IT!!!

Thats all for now. Oh and I'm back to composing music. =)

The Chonicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian the Movie

Ever since I watch this movie, I've been thinking at how we really have neglected God. For some of you who have not known, this movie is actually based on the bible, well written by C.S. Lewis into a Fantasy Fiction novel. Indeed it was the Dark Times of Narnia at this point in time. It also shows basically our own normal life. Here we see, Narnia with Aslan missing and the Kings and Queens of Old were blamed for leaving Narnia. This depicts what we feel whenever we are down and when things do not seem to go our way, we feel exactly how the Narnian's felt.

The great thing about this movie was, the old enemies have join forces with the Narnian's like the Minotaur, used to be under the White Witch's command, have now join the ranks in the battle of the Telmarines(hope i got it right). And in this whole movie, its all about seeking God and how we foolish it may be to others. Yet sometimes God's Calling is just right in front of you, its just like how Queen Lucy put it "Perhaps you weren't looking for Aslan." Thats the thing that hits the nail on the head.

When you needed a direction, you pray, yes you pray, and in the end? You can't see God, you can't feel him, why? Either you were busy trying to be your proud self? Like Peter the High King when he was suppose to find a way to re-group with the other Narnians. But in the end, nearly lead them to the main army of the Telmarines. Lucy depicts the Mary from the Mary and Martha. She is always seeking God wholeheartedly, no doubts about God even when he's not around. Yet the moment she seek Him, Aslan, in the end she brought peace to the whole of Narnia. This goes to show one thing, you seek God, He's there, and when you really seek him because you love him, all things shall be added. Lucy was not afraid of the enemy at the last part. She knows, Aslan is with her. Its the same with our life. We have God on our side, whom shall we be afraid?

The movie also touch on the issue of temptation once again. She tempted Prince Caspian and in the end when High King Peter intervene he was also tempted. The good news is, even when you are tempted, its always great to have a best friend, your brother in Christ to save you from the lurch of evil. King Edmund was once tempted and he knows that no good will come from accepting the Witches offer. He immediately broke the spell with no hesitation and saved the High King from being tempted.

Other than that, Peter the High King knew he made a lot of mistakes, so does Prince Caspian, and in order to ensure victory over the vast army of the Telmarines, High king Peter went mano a mano with the King of the Telmarines. Peter wins the battle.

Besides I think this whole movie talks alot about Redemption as well as Forgiveness. Caspian's people were the Telmarines. Only he is able to set things right for he was the only Telmarine who have heard of Narnians. He was campassionate, thoughtful, a worthy fighter and a humble man. Even when he had vengeance in his heart, he did not kill. He may be tempted, but he is still able to guard his heart. A person who rises above and overcomes problems. That's how we have to be, no matter what the cost.

The Call by Regina Spektor Cover

Here's my Latest Recording! With my New guitar! LOL! Love this song. Its from The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian, Hope you enjoy it.

[Sermon Extracts] by Kong Hee

A VERY IMPT POINT TO NOTE!

message by pastor kong hee that will change your life

Kong Hee : Message

Wow really refresh my memory man...

Preaching by Pastor Kong Hee

That's When we Learn the Cultural Mandate

message by pastor kong hee that will change your life

A simple 1 minute preaching. Actually its just one minute of what he preaches however its a pretty good message!

Say Some More

THIS IS EVEN MORE HILARIOUS!!! Recently Checked out Jack Neo's productions on youtube this one is one of his movies. Hilarious! What he's trying to say the first part is that the "people dun like this kind of Professional looking people. The Higher-ups like this kind of Professional people because they will "arrow" each other until the lower people gets the blame." The rest is up to you to watch and laugh! LOL!

《钱不够用2》－ 请关掉电话 Please off your mobile

THIS IS SUPER HILARIOUS!!!

Great News Number 2!

Some of you have not known this. Well, I went to a website where writers can comment on each others stories that they posted up. So the registration is simple. First of all its free, but to be able to post something, you have to give comments to other people. Smart administrator, force you to read others work then post LOL!

To my main topic, I posted my piece of article on a Fantasy story known as Peacemaker Chronicles. I had a great response from the comments. Its only 6 comments but quite a number of views! Some gave me great con-crit (constructive criticism) advice. I am now, planning my story such that it is entertaining and yet holds a deep message. Just like C.S. Lewis for chronicles of Narnia, I hope I can do a better job at writing a message hidden behind a fantasy.

For those who wanna take a look at my story? Well I believe its at my previous post... Let me see
http://caleb4eva.blogspot.com/2008/03/peacemaker-chronicles-dragoon-tales.html

There... So I posted this, I even got a 14 year old boy interested! Whats the site for this writing spot? Well, heres the link http://www.writersintouch.com/article_list.php?categoryid=13
Check it out! If you wanna be the next generation writer and you're not sure if people liked it? Then why not try this out first before publishing? LOL! Of course there is the risk that people will steal your ideas, I'm just there to share them.

T A K A M I N E

PHWAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!

GOOD NEWS!!! FINALLY!!!

I'VE GOT A NEW ACOUSTIC GUITAR!!!!!!!!

Takamine brand, cost about $300 and that does not come with a bag. So all in all, I bought everything for 380 plus. But the sound has great volume and vibrancy. I really love that guitar I bought. If only I had a camera to take a picture of it... If I ever have the chance I'll take one and post it up here. Well, today, my friends came to my house to Jam and what a great time. Kean was suppose to stay at my house, but due to a family outing, he had to cancel sleeping over, but he came over and we did something out of this world. LOL!

Ha0 also came to my house. We jammed the guitar for hours but it seemed like 30 mins from the whole thing. Time flies so fast when you enjoy yourself...

Anyway for service today, was the most interesting science lesson we have ever had. Haha... Pastor preached about DNA and why do we learn this? Because we carry Jesus DNA in our bodies the moment we are saved. We have the DNA that writes the code of "Faith, Hope and Love" in it.

The Ultimate revelation? Did you know that your body is held up by the cross even before you are saved??? Well we LITERALLY are held by crosses.

Pastor showed us an image of a certain protein in our body known as Laminin. It was an interesting protein.

This Protein has a shape of a Cross

Its main function was to connect the almost all the tissues in our body and basically they held the internal organs together.

If this protein were to fail, your body can break down. However, we all did not know that such a protein exist! I went to wikipedia and saw the definition of the protein, I am very sure that there is a God.

Such creativity even before Jesus died, God already placed something in our body that resembles the death of Jesus Christ, that paid for our sins. We are indeed made by a God above.

Step Up Your Game

As the title suggest, its also what I need to do right now.

Last night was not only a Jamming Session in the studio, but it was also a Jamming Session between my friend Shun and my guitar friend Ha0. Basically, when it comes to pursuing music? Ha0 is there to intervene somehow. LOL! In a good way. As I am really a "mommy's boy", ya I've confessed, I tend to not take risk. Those are the influence of my mom.

So anyway, we were Jamming with guitars, and some people do not call that jamming, but who cares. So Ha0 was playing all sorts of things, Fall For You intro, Hey There Delilah intro plucking, Your Call verse plucking, and all other plucking sorts. Shun? He just sat there and listen. Learn abit of guitar and beats (Coz he love the drums actually and was a little interested in guitar so he joined us, also, he missed Ha0, LOL!)

Me? I am the strumming fellow. I teach them a bit of strumming, teach Shun to play a decent song with 4 chords, yup, Apologize by One Republic. Its 4 chords actually, with no melody, just the core of the song. Perform Fall For You strumming and its in the Key of E coz Secondhand serenade the singer sings in Key of C and we would all waste our vocal chords if we imitate him. I pointed that out to Ha0. Hope he remembers.

Oh, I also taught them Wonderwall by Oasis. Strumming patterns for the intro only. They need a lot of work on switching chords. Me too actually, I tend to forget the chords when I sing and play. That was simply irritating especially when you're recording. Also, i do not sing with my original voice? So basically, all my videos on youtube are rather fake coz i'm singing in a key that is not my own, and I strain too much on my vocal chords until i would sing out of tune due to no breath.
Sheesh, so we did just that. Its really good to have friends who have almost the same passion in music coz they encourage you. As well as they will push you to succeed to learn new techniques et cetera. Ha0 wanted to attend that guitar course I mentioned which is for acoustic only, and I need to convince my mom to buy me one acoustic and get into the course which I tried. Only succeeded in making her think about it.

Most probably the chance is there. I'll be following Ha0 most probably, on Saturday to check out the guitars at Swee Lee shop. Was said they are having a warehouse sale. Going to check it out.

Well that's practically my whole yesterday. I've just talked about. What about today? Well, next post, after my work I'll probably write. LOL! Nothing happened yet today. Except if you count slacking in the morning...

JAM SESSION!!! WHOO HOO!!!

Yesterday, was the first time... I entered a Jamming Studio. G_G

It was 2 hours of trying out instruments and playing some songs. But of course, the people I went with are people still learning their instruments, so basically it was noisy and at the same time fun. Actually it was my friend who invited to join them on the Jam session. My reason for joining? Well, I wanted to try out the electric guitar! LOL!

It was FANTASTIC! The electric guitar is so easy! Why easy? Well, the amplifier basically ups the volume and you dun have to play so hard on the strings to get the sound you want. Its also dun if you have the paddle effects to play around with. I tried playing Apologize by One Republic and Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. It sounded weird on the electric, but its not so weird after all. Its so much easier!!! LOL! You press on a string and BAM! A note sings and practically it does. You slide down the fret board it also makes a sound!

I know for those who already tried or have already played will go, "nothing special electric guitar." But the moment I hear the sounds, I know that if I want to go soloing on a electric guitar, its not for me. Ask me to play and sing with an electric guitar? That's something else. I do not want to play extra stuff anyway. All I want was to sing and play at the same time. Which I got a chance inside that Jam room. It was fun, as the guitarist guy, nicknamed "Mi", suddenly started to play introductions to songs from MCR(My Chemical Romance). Then it really gets fun. Then we tried Linken Park's No More Sorrow intro. Lol. My friend shun, on the drums is just weird. He is a little off beat as he is still learning. Me, if I ever want to learn? I guess chord keyboarding will be my next target of music. But for now, guitar will sufficed.

Whoa, I talked so long about the JAM SESSION! LOL! Well, even after this experience, in the end, I still love, the Acoustic Guitar more than the electric. Requires more skill to bring out the RAW-ness of the song. Requires more finger-plucking technique to get the melody out. Sure electric is the same. In the end, I still think that acoustic is a good-way for songwriting. Everywhere you go, you can play an acoustic anywhere and it still sounds nice without the amp. For electric? You need an amp. Sure you can play by its own. But it does not sound great at all, trust me.

Ok ok, i'm boring my non-music fans. Btw, I get to officially say, I'VE FINISHED MY CERT COURSE ON CREATIVE COMPUTER ANIMATION! My 3D Common Sense has leveled up!

I just realise... Music is INDEED my Life

Recently, I've went to check out Peace Centre's Guitar shop called City Music. Its one huge shop.

Anyway, the reason I went there was to find a suitable guitar. They had guitars from Ovation, Custom Acoustics, Line 6 they sell keyboards too, KORG brands and many others. Then I saw the flier they had at the counter. City Music is teaching music too. So I decided to check it out.

Upon reaching, the staff there were a little lost when I started to ask questions on lessons and what do they have as well as the content of the lesson. So they introduced me to the head of the City Music School. His name was Jimmy. Now this guy, he's 50 yrs old. And boy his room, got a computer with an AMP for a speaker. Two acoustic guitars, two electric guitars, two keyboards in one room. And he even got a white board. And boy he was surfing youtube! LOL!

Anyway, this guy began to ask me what's my expectations and I asked if he can recommend a course for me. However, somehow along that line, he began sharing with me music in general. How is it that people always just want to play chords and never want to know how it came about. Just wanting to play it. He has a huge insight about music. He plays the guitar, the piano and even the drums! and he's 50 YEARS OLD!

Well enough said, the thing is, there I was seating and just listening to him. I feel my spirit inside began to ignite and now my fire to learn guitar began to spark. Piano... Is just too far away for me, but guitar, I feel that I can master it and other than that, I want to work on my voice. I really feel that my seriousness for music has gone up.

I had to cut him short of the conversation coz i had a movie to attend. But he taught me something before I go, however I won't share it yet until it works for me. haha... So keep waiting.

Why is the Heart so complicated...

Probably some of us have this sort of thinking when you thought you fell in love with someone but yet the person just keeps "ignoring" you somehow just because you did not say that you like that person.

That nagging feeling inside, of the fear that you will lose this person to someone else, is also inside that turmoil.

What I'm saying here is be careful.

Issues of the Heart spring issues of Life. Recently, I've listened to Pastor Kong's Preaching on Choosing the Right Life Partner. He started off by saying that the partner you choose, is not God's choice, but YOUR choice. You choose the partner that you want to be with forever. So then how can you determine if that person is the right person for you?

This is just a short summary, God gives you a certain Guideline on how to choose wisely. The moment you hear the different sides of the Guidelines, like how Anger can play a role in choosing the right partner, then you began to think. In the end, ultimately, you should choose CHARACTER rather than outward appearance. Its a bonus if you have both in my opinion, however, as Pastor Kong puts it, its not going to LAST. However, Character in itself will never fade. Fall in love for the character and not the outward appearance.

Pastor Kong addressed the issue of Long Distance relationships are not going to happen too. If the person is staying on one end of Singapore and you on the other side, it will tend to fade. The feelings you had may be gone.
"But my love will prevail, and the further we're apart the stronger our feelings for each other!" NO! Absolutely not. It will wane and in the end, both parties are not going to be very happy. Thus it was not advisable to get into a relationship when staying too far apart...

What I'm trying to say here is not to put you down. But rather it is just a guideline. I belief some CAN go for Long Distance relationships and are able to keep the faith until they are married. Those are only a rare few. However in general, most of us can't.

I've been thinking about how to find the right girl for my life, after all I'm already going to be 20 years of age, I have not been involved with relationships as I told myself to abstain from it in order to concentrate on what I have to do in Life. Boy was I happy I did, now I get to listen to this CD, I can now think about it for the next two years in army. After that? Who knows? Might as well live life TODAY and leave Yesterday and tomorrow in God's Hands. right?

The Last Goodnight - Pictures of You

This pop song is new and its really very meaningful. Further more the lyrics are catchy as well as the music. Check it out guys.

Holding on to Precious Moments...

You know, time really passes so fast you just sometimes wish for it to stop just a moment and really get to do more things in that stopped time. Ya, its just a fantasy that everyone wants. A point in time to just stop and appreciate what you have.

My friends, will be in National Service very soon. By September, all would be inside their camp or for some, graduated from National Service Basic Military Training and will be heading for the various choice of divisions.

Me? Still studying... October then my lesson ends. Its going to be lonely without Kean Mun and all my pals which we played soccer most of the time with. By next month, I won't be seeing him anymore. However one thing really touch my heart just last night.

I went to Kean Mun's house last night, just to spend time with him. We will always talk about Music. Watch Youtube videos on the current songs as well as the old songs. Discussed about singers and how good they are. We even watch talent shows like X Factor, the show that produces, Shayne Ward and Leona Lewis. We also watch talent in the music arena from the show Star Kings. Those were the good ole days... Just talking about music, and playing Dota too.

Last night, he talked to me, something which even, I felt that indeed God is moving. Because recently, someone lend him a DVD about Nick Voijic. Dunno if I spelled it right, but the point is... Kean Mun was certainly given a new boost of faith from God. I mean, he rarely goes to church and he is a rather on and off person to go to church. But Nick Voijic really can change life's from where he is in his circumstance. Kean was going through some heart issues and because of an opportune time, his church friends lend him a DVD of Nick and he watched it. He was so touched he knows that how small his problems compared to a person like Nick.

Most of all, I feel that the number of times I have spent time with him was worth it. He is a nice guy, a person who can appreciate all aspects of life. He can be critical, to his friends most of the time, but he is deep inside, a very good person. Sure friends sometimes cannot agree with one another, however the key to all kinds of relationships, is always, communication.

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

This band rox man. I love this guys acoustic rendition and piano. And his voice PHWAAAAH! Its high man, its high. Really cannot reach, need to modify if you want to sing his songs.

I see... A roadblock ahead...

I am honestly worried. I mean, I have been given a chance to shine in the area of Animation. But, I just feel that, the industry certainly needs more ANIMATORS and MODELERS rather than STORY-BOARDING/SCRIP-WRITING.

Its been 5 weeks with 3D Sense Media. It was a rough ride for me as I had to juggle, work, school work, and my animation homework. Most of the stuff I did right now, are just simply not what I liked. I wanted to do animation. But as I began to go into it. I found that in the end, I prefer to tell the stories. But to portray it on film, I am not so sure anymore... Yet I am still pressing on.

It really was a very intense and rough week. First there was the lost of handphone incident in Guardian Pharmacy. The customer lost her handphone, then I remembered last night I placed a handphone below the cashier where a shelf is located. When I searched, its not there. PANIC!

Everything in Guardian was so intense once again. That day was really the worst day of my life. I mean, I was scolded by Lynn for not being on time. For Chatting on the phone when Cashiering, but I was talking to a new job opportunity, yea I know I deserved it. In the end the phone was with one of our staff who took it home? WHAT IN THE WORLD??? Haiz...

And before that, my mom woke me up, when I was still in a daze that I have not been doing my work? Or something like that. I just simply hate it when people wake me up, when clearly I am so bloody tired for something like a talk. The thing is, I controlled myself, trying to talk it out, then my mom mentioned something then I snapped. I guess, its really coz I am really tired, and she kept repeating it, and I am trying my best to listen, but I cant, and then she started accusing me. So i snapped, I shouted at her. I shouldn't have. It was wrong.

After I have shouted at her for waking me up so early to lecture me, I was suddenly afraid. I mean, I do not usually shout at people at the level I shouted. I do not like to give in to anger, cause I know my anger is very quick to hurt people. I have been afraid to be angry at others because the moment I snapped, I cannot hold back. Thus I always want to attain peace in my life. I never want to get angry again.

So yea I shouted at my own Mom, which got my Dad annoyed and started blaming her. I mean, I felt bad at that instant. Because I do not want my family to fall apart just because of one foolish son. I've already created enough trouble for my family for taking a course in animation and to retake one more semester. I can't believe I'm actually writing this!

I mean I feel like a real failure. I have never felt failure so much more than in the area of science, in the area of HARDWORK! I do not understand WHY ME? Why do I detest HARDWORK? Is my flesh at work? If that's the case, I'm going to have to break it. The bondage of not being able to do Hardwork. I need to find a way. Or I can never achieve anything great.

Thank God for music. Its the only medium that I always run back to whenever I feel hurt and down, happy or sad. Delighted, elated. I've been so into it, learning new strumming patterns from a band called Secondhand Serenade. I'm going to post a youtube video about the latest hit, Fall For you. Its amazing! And i can play it! The problem? Lyrics. To Sing and play, is really a challenge. Thus, I'm not going to do a cover unless I'm sure of my lyrics. Thus, the little videos I have. Some were hastily posted. I need to change the video for one or two.

I also want to thank God for getting me out of the predicament of getting caught in a police report because of the phone. I was really freaked man. No joke and totally scared out of my wits. SHEESH! Well, if you do want to Jam, I'm free on Wednesdays only. Gimme a call! Coz I got free incoming. Haha... You know who you are...

Heart of Worship - Matt Redman cover

Did a cover on one of the most sung songs in the Christian Culture. Hahaha... I hope it appeals to most of you.

I Will Bless the Lord - True Worshippers cover

Well heres the Promised cover on this song! I tried my best! I hope that one day, when someone will bless me a video camera I can post better quality videos! LOL!

Captivated - Captivated

This is the original Captivated. It was the one I did a cover on. Sidney, rock on man. Love that genuine worship he always gives to God.

Captivated - I Will Bless The Lord

This is one of the songs i'm going to do a cover on. Again I have to say something about this band True Worshippers... I SIMPLY LOVE THAT KEYBOARDIST! SUPER POWER!

Hey its been a while since i did an update on the blog. Basically, I have been focusing on my guitar, as you can see from the video, that I have decided to switch to pop music for awhile. So I will still do gospel song covers but more to the pop genre now. So major shift thats why I will be practicing intensively because I understand that pop is always more critical, somehow people will get critical about it.

So other than guitar, I still have to complete my 3Dsense Media assignment. Its going to end in 3 weeks time. By then, I should have an animated short film! However, I can't show to others yet. ahahaha...

Then there is still my OWN Biotech course. I have to finish an assignment next week. Well, thats the current issues I need to deal with. So my list is to finish my Assignment 1 this week by Friday. My 3D homework by sat nigh and of course, music as much as possible. LOL!

Its a rather crappy post, nothing much to really talked about...

OH! I WATCH IRONMAN! G_G I rate it 4/5 stars! Movie goers pls do watch, its worth your money!!!!

Thats all folks, for now.

Alicia Keys No One cover

Yes and its my FIRST pop song attempt. Please laugh at it. Haha... Coz I am still trying to work on my voice.

Hillsong United - Fire Fall Down cover

Me Playing Fire Fall Down by Hillsong United. Enjoy

GUARDIAN pharmacy...The new job...

Yup, I've found another job. Its really the grace of God to be able to find jobs that are near my home and though the pay was low, but so long as it has a friendly environment, its ok.

So yeah, from the title, you know where I worked at. This branch is near my house. For those who were in my cell group, yes its the one at Yew Tee MRT. I work there now. Haha.

The staff were friendly, today was my second day. First day there was nothing much to do, except to visit another branch in Bukit Gombak to collect some stuff for our own outlet. Of course, I did not pay for the transport, the company did. Other than that, we did something called Front-facing. It's a monotonous and tedious job, where you have to make sure all the products are facing to the front of the price tag. And it has to be place near the edge.

The overall workload was like a normal retail shop. Stressful, due to overwhelming customers. Especially during peak hours. They were all stressed to the bone. Especially when customers have some difficulty with the prizes.

One customer in particular, paid the amount then wondered, "why I paid so much for it? I thought it was discounted?" he asked me. I was like "Huh?"
"I saw the price tag, it was $7 plus, but you charge me $9 plus."
I was totally clueless, I just learnt cashiering, not familiar with all the items there yet. So i asked my colleague to settle for me. And I continued to serve other customers.

Then he came back with a face that does not look happy.
customer: "can I take back the money?"
me: "Er... No, sir. I already key in and cash in the money. I can't give the money back already."
customer: "But I just now thought it was $7 plus."
me: "I'm sorry sir, but I already key in, I can't undo it. Its not in my position. Unless you want to exchange items for the same amount of money."
customer: "hmm..." At this point of time, I said "Next." For the next customer, and it was already a dragon of a Q.

In the end, he just accepted the item. Guess what it was. Toothpaste. All that for a tube of Toothpaste. SHEESH! Your daily needs also want to bargain? I know that customer actually was like a Bangla. But even so, toothpaste, is daily necessity what. I really dunno how to say this. But even I buy toothpaste, if its not discount its not lor, just pay. Daily necessity.

I understand, some are not as well off as me. The thing is, its still a need, not a want. I won't bargain for such a thing la, but of course, we are all humans, want to save more money. I guess, really when it comes to the world, your Right and Wrong values somehow got mixed up.

However, thanks to a book, known as the Bible, we can live life through the manual of the book of life.

Saviour King - You Are Faithful cover

This song was from one of my favorite albums of Hillsong.

Enjoy!

True Worshippers - Captivated by JPCC cover

I know Ha0 its not what you expected. In the end I could not do the song, its too fast, and chord change was too much. But hey, this is another song I tried. Did two videos today, next one is upcoming!

Great... Just Great...

Today, not much really happen today. Save that I did my modeling of the polar bear head and now the nose of the bear looks like a pig. Oh boy.

Then comes my mom, telling me to find a Job at Guardian pharmacy near to my house. Which I got the job. Yippee!

After which I manage to complete two songs and post it on youtube. Yippee! Again.

Aftre that? Attempt Savior King's Savior King. And I capo the guitar, in the end, wait not at the end, in the middle of the song, when i'm strumming casually... TWANG! POP GOES THE WEASEL! SHOOT THE NUGGUTS! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! OH MY TIAN!

The guitar string caput on me. Yes Enling, I'm sorry, furthermore, the string that broke, was not the OLD string... BUT THE NEW ONE! How weird is that?

Anyway, this is an... EMERGENCY! I HAVE 4 DAYS TO FIND STRINGS, BUY THEM AND RESTRING IT! AND MANAGE TO GET THE STRINGS IN TUNE BY SATURDAY!!!

or... I can borrow Weiloong's acoustic guitar... I know I'm panicking, but its not my guitar you see, its the cell group guitar! And I spoiled it! AGAIN! AND NOT IN THE MIDDLE OF CELL GROUP!

Great... Just Great... Thus the title.

Oh my modeling....

Welcome back to another issue of 3D common sense. Heres an update.

I've already submitted my storyboard, and boy, some of my classmates can really draw their CHARACTERS! Its too amazing. I've seen better storyboards than me too. I kinda feel out of place as the people really could draw and only one of them I can see can't draw as well too. But even so, it was a great experience to just watch how their storyboards were corrected as the animation they thought of was too many movements for one man to do.

Now, we were giving a new assignment and that is to MODEL our Character, the scene(background), the various props and animations that is found in the storyboard. I have LOADS to do. I mean, all I have is a Polar bear, an igloo, a ice plain with mountains, and animated cracks. Very little huh?

CERTAINLY NOT! Just this four can easily kill me! LOL! Especially when my knowledge of 3D Studio Max is not as Strong as one of my classmate, also named, Clement.

I have to give all I've got this week. Must finish the ice plain and igloo today(Monday). Probably the animated cracks the next day, and the rest of the week, the character. Hmm... Or probably the other way around... ARGH. Ok its the other way around. Character first.

Rie made another guitar vid again. SHE HAS SO MANY! Can't believe it. Also, I'm starting to think how Gail is doing. Wonder if she is still reading this. LOL!

ANOTHER PERSONALITY TEST!!!

This time its the bomb man! This personality test really like very professional. Lol. Just give it a go ok?

http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=cxnxtqKmuwLEwPg-HO-CDDDD-0581&u=85d58b73b22e

Take this link and click take the test.

Here are my results:

You are a Benevolent Creator.

about you

You are a Creator

Your imagination, confidence, willingness to explore, and appreciation of beauty make you a CREATOR.

You are independent, and you enjoy your self-sufficiency.

Defying convention, you are very innovative, and you have a vivid imagination.

The look of things is important to you, and you have a keen eye for aesthetic beauty in multiple arenas.

You have a strong interest in what is new and exciting—and that includes forging ahead with new ideas, not simply discovering what is already out there.

Your eagerness to seek new and varied experiences leads you into many different situations.

You're not set on one way of doing things, and you are creative when it comes to finding novel solutions to complex problems.

You trust yourself to be innovative and resourceful.

Your confidence allows you to take your general awareness and channel it into creativity.

You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.

You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

Appreciate the earthly, practical elements of things—there is beauty in form as well.

While you are good at thinking abstractly, focusing on details a bit more may help you discover things about the world.

how you relate to others

You are Benevolent

You are a great person to interact with—understanding, giving, and trusting—in a word, BENEVOLENT

You don't mind being in social situations, as you feel comfortable enough with people to be yourself.

Your caring nature goes beyond a basic concern: you take the time to understand the nuances of people's situations before passing any sort of judgment.

You're a good listener, and even better at offering advice.

You're concerned with others at both an individual and societal level—you sympathize with the plights of troubled groups, and you can care about people you've never met.

Considering many different perspectives is something at which you excel, and you appreciate that quality in others.

Other people's feelings are important to you, and you're good at mediating disputes.

Because of your understanding and patience, you tend to bring out the best in people.

If you want to be different:

You spend a lot of time taking care of others, but don't forget to take care of yourself!

Sometimes you can get overcommitted, and when you sacrifice spending time with those close to you, it can make them feel unimportant.

Storyboarding, its not that Simple...

What have I been busy with recently?

Well, I had homework from my course on Film animation. Had to do something called Storyboarding. I'm not even halfway done! I only sketched a few panels and still have more to go. But it was fun. I mean, I felt like a director when I did those shots. However, my fleshly nature has been telling my body to go and sleep on it. Which sadly, I have been. I can't keep on sleeping on it! I have to get it done! Theres still Character Design to work on, Modeling, Animating. However all this cannot be done without a storyboard. FOCUS! Clement FOCUS!

Oh ya, what is storyboarding? Some of you who have already been through film school, you should know, for the benefit of all those NOT in film, which is the majority of my peers, lol, I shall explain.

Storyboard is the backbone of a film production. It contains pictures as well as all he information needed to get the story done. If the story is crap, its not worth showing anyway and it will be a waste of time to do the film, the storyboard is thus, the planning stage. Planning the script, manipulating the camera, the lights, the sound, the music, the effects, all these are written down and drawn out on a story board.

Yes tedious work. Sometimes I wonder why I like planning only in the area of stories... Hmm... Perhaps I just want to entertain. However, being an entertainer is not enough. I have other plans in store for my animation. Some may not understand and asked "Why animation? Why not just write a book or something?" Thats the thing, I can write, but not fluently, not with captivation like certain authors. However, i discovered that as I read, i have a rather pictorial image of what is going on. Some which I exercise a lot when I write my stories. Ya ta all story tellers do that.

I can't draw, neither can I write, but I felt that I can see a direction in movies that is my style that I know, film production is limited. All the things I envisioned are probably going to get criticize, but who cares. I am who God created. He has a purpose for me, I'm going to give all I got for this animation.

But wait a minute! I just realized I still had another Course to completer! Bioprocess technology... Maybe next time. LOL! I know procrastination... I shall start today then. *Sigh* Lots to do. Life is always this busy.

Jesus Loves Me Cover

This song maybe childish to some. But yet a simple song such as this reminds any Christian what child-like faith is all about. Its a song that can touch the hearts of man and taught when we were young yet we somehow neglect. Remember, Jesus Loves Me, for the Bible tells you so.

Life goes on...

Surely, it has been a days of sorrow, for not just me, but to some others as well.

Yet we all can see a new light ahead after entering the dark tunnel. Its just there, waiting for us to enter it. However, we only noticed at how long the tunnel is, and not the end of the tunnel. You see when there is light, shadows will form. Depending on the angle the light shone, the longer the shadows are. If the light is intensified, the shadow gets darker, and more opaque.

Still, the LIGHT is there! Never lose hope. Never think that it can be done. Its going to be hard as the bigger the dream the higher the adversaries, and the higher you stretch yourself. Never give up. Stay to your path, straying from it will be inevitable at times, but not too far away. Press on, press on, press on in your prayer and fasting. Keep on keeping on, to read the word.

Recently, I've been strumming my guitar on the oldest songs, one we even sang when I was in Sunday School, or children's church:

Jesus, Loves me This I know
For the Bible Tells me So
Little ones who him Belong
They are Weak But He is Strong

Yes, Jesus Loves Me
Yes, Jesus Loves Me
Yes Jesus Loves Me

For the Bible Tells Me So

This is only one verse and the chorus, there are two more verses.

Jesus Loves me, He who Died
Heaven's Gates to Open Wide
He will wash away my Sin
Let his little Children come in
(Chorus)

Third verse:

Jesus loves me when I'm Good
When I do the Things I should
Jesus Loves me when I'm Bad
Even though it makes him Sad
(Chorus)

Why am I bringing up this song? Well, I wanted to encourage you to see for yourself, that this is the innocent child-like faith that we need too. Perhaps the song is simple that was why it was for children, but it holds a great meaning that we often dismiss. The verses carry a simple message, have you loved Jesus? Even if you do not love him, he still loves you, because you know this by reading the WORD of GOD.

Just wanted to share. Cheerio!

Carola Häggkvist - Invincible @ CHC

I seem to be starting to look at flashbacks of what happened in church! Oh btw, Rie, THIS is Carola!

Kong Hee - Fourth Dimension (AB2007)

Truly, something to watch and visualize.

Another Loved one... Went to the Lord...

I just received news that my Childhood friend, Josiah, his Dad, passed away...

I heard the news after I have ended work. I spoke to Junjie as he gave a miss call so I called back. He immediately told me that he heard from Annie, that Josiah's Dad passed away. I was shocked.

I immediately called my parents to ask if they have heard any thing about Josiah's Dad. They said they have not received news.

Mom: Why?
Me: Just now one of my friends called to say that His Dad passed on.
Mom: Really? Ok I'll give Florence(Josiah's Mom) a call.
Me: Ya please do. I'm really concerned.

And i meant it. I was rather lost in thought, in fact my mind was a total blank as I went home. I wanted to hear the news. That it was a fake. But in the end. It was true... Jason, Uncle Jason, was gone.

It was news that was a SHOCK to my family. We just saw him this CHINESE NEW YEAR! He was healthy! I mean we visited his house, he was a LIVING TESTIMONY! He had went through tough days of battle against his health and he has always been faithful to God even through his trials. He even said "Praise God, that I am healed." He was a man full of faith and full of gusto. Despite what he went through, even though he was skinny to the bone, he still praise God.

A huge inspiration. A uncle I never had. I mean, Josiah and I were CHILDHOOD Buddies. Sometimes, I just had a wake up call. This is the time in my life, where more people I love, will start to vanish. All the more, I should treasure them. All the more I should spend time with the friends I lost and I want to get them back to God.

One things for sure, I may grief over him. Grief over the Chua family plight, but ultimately ONE THING I am sure of... Jason, has Gone to Heaven.

I can't say anymore. Its been a rough day.

Omega Weapon...

Yes this is referring to the Final Fantasy's greatest enemy... Omega Weapon. Its crazy I tell you. I was playing Final Fantasy 8 just now and I finally went face to face with Omega Weapon. It was a DEVASTATION! Why did he use the Terra Break attack the moment my Holy War effect ends? WHY! The Terra Break just killed off my main party... Thats just, CRAZY! AND! WHY DID IT HEAL WHEN THE BOOK SAID IT WAS ICE WEAKNESS??? I set all elemental attacks to Blizzaga too... What is wrong with this game? Anyway, I have not defeated the main boss, but I'm not going to, unless I kicked Omega's Butt!!!

Well, other than that, the whole day was trying to kill off Ultimecia's Servants, stupid power sealers... But they were rather easy taken down. Manage to unlock all and now have to face Weapon. Ultima Weapon wasn't as pain as Omega... Whatever, I think I'll try again tomorrow...

By the way, New Video bellow!

3D Common Sense - Lighting

This time its about Lighting. We learned modeling of the house before, and now lighting. Its not that simple you know. There are again many technical stuff again, nearly fell asleep because the lecturer to be honest was quite monotoned. But at one point in class, we perked up because we started talking abit about Flash, games and all that stuff. That was the only enjoyable part.

After that we were more attentive in lighting and its true purpose and how to light up a scene. There are three lights needed. The Key light which has a highest intensity of light or multitude for 3D Studio Max. Then Fill light which is about more than 90 degrees less than 180 degrees from the first light and its horizontally moved and duplicated. So that it shines on the other side where the shadow is.

The last light is the BACK light. Now this time, we duplicate that light by copying and rotating the source to the BOTTOM of the scene. There we eliminate the shadow at the bottom and TADAH! You light up a scene!

Oh yea today had some free time so I did a Cover on Jakarta Praise Community Church's latest song, Allelujia to Christ the lord. Enjoy!

JPCC - Allelujia to Christ the Lord Cover

Another youtube video of me!

Just want to comment that my next video, which is below this post is out! Its whatever the title says it is. LOL!

I've made 3 attempts in this before I have the confidence to post this on the 4th try. Well enjoy, its still not perfect. Watch out for other videos of me if you want to. LOL!

Came to the Rescue - Hillsong United Cover

"Should all aquaintance be forgot"

This is just a note to my late Great Grandmother.

I may not know you alot. Yet you still are part of the family. Every relative is someone significant and you are also significant. It has been a hard Life for you, adapting to situations nearly I could not imagine how you could live it out. You have put up a real good fight in Life and now, laid to rest in peace. Never worry, never falter along your new path, but I know you will be strong, wherever you go. Rest in peace and God Bless.

Now onto my main topic. Well, it has been a rough week for everybody. I mean, my aunts were all keeping their composure ever since their Grandmother, which is my late Great Grandma, passed away on a Monday, 7th April 2008 at about 11pm at the confirmed death time.

Today on the 11th April 2008, she was lead to cremation in one of the most hi-tech cremation areas I have ever seen. That was the irony when we reached there, we, as in almost everyday who was their first time there, were in awed at how high tech the place was set up. So we watched through glass panels as the coffin was lead into a door where the furnace could be seen. There were shouts like "MOTHER! SIAM!" meaning "get out of the way mother!" get away from what? Well, the fire actually. It was a rather silly claim that if they say that, the body somehow won't be burned. But everyone knows, that the body will be burnt. Yet the family still said it.

When we returned to eat a vegetarian lunch, well it was catered, we had no choice but to eat the "flour" that looks like meat. But it wasn't so bad. Everybody was feeling all ok and happy after that. So now we have to move on.

I guess I mostly disliked funerals. I mean, the dead was laid over there by the void deck. Then for those who are budhist they tend to perform all those joss stick burning and bowing before the coffin on their knees. Another word for it is to Kow-tow to the coffin. Of course being Christians, we shall not bow down before other Gods or idolatry, so we refrain from bowing at all. We still did the walking around the coffin and throwing chrysanthemum flower petals around. After that there was a band over there that played the song of Auud Lane Syne. Meanwhile, the relatives and family members will give their last farewell by talking to the coffin.

What did I say you asked? Well, I said to her "that it has been a hard life, yet you obtain peace in your death. Go steady and God bless, may the Lord be with you. Amen" I just spoke on impulse, but after that, tears begin to come. We have lost, a family member.

Mixed Feelings Day... More sad then Happy

Today... I just got back from Tan Tock Seng Hospital.

No, I'm not injured. Let me explain this from my workplace. It was a mixed feelings of happy and sad day today.

Before I left my office, I was told it was my last day at work. Wow. I was happy at the instant she said that... Then I went sad. How am I suppose to pay up for my school fees now?

Yup so I left the workplace just like that feeling two feelings at the same time. I doubt anybody can do that... Well except probably my aussie friend Gail...

Anyway, the moment I was about to reach Tiong Bahru Station, I received a phone call from my mom. Actually, she went to the hospital in the early morning to visit my Great Grandmother which have been hospitalized as she was in critical condition. So this time, it was after work, about 6.30pm, she called me to announced, in a calm voice, that she has... passed on.

I mean, I was not that shock, neither am I happy. I was, in-between. My great-grandma has just passed on. All of a sudden images of the past begin floating in. In case you did not know, my Great Grandma had led a very hard life. She had to do loads of things for her children and one of her children was my grandmother which I dearly love. Yet this Great Grandma, had to work a living for her kids and of course by then, my Great Grandpa was not around anymore. So she had to slog it out herself to raise money for her children.

So there I was, talking to my mom and she told me if i wanted to come down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. I admitted I was a little reluctant as I was on my way to Sean's house to practice 3D Studio Max. However, I knew in the end I would go. For the sake of encouraging other relatives as well as to be there when such situations happen. So i did. I went down using MRT.

On the way to TTSH, I met my Japanese Teacher from the Community Centre which he taught us. Suzuki-sensei was with his wife. I can tell. But I did not see his face. I tapped his arm and he went. "Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh."
"How are you? Genki?" I was smiling. I mean, I haven't seen my sensei and now he's testing me my jap. Well, thanks to Rie I knew how to answer. "Hai, genki desu." He was nodding his head. We did not talk much due to the congestion inside the train car. So I left with a "Sayonara" and he did the same.

I know I am going about random stuff so bare with me. It has been a long day.

On route to TTSH, I was thinking about the times I spent with my Great Grandma. They have not been a close one. I always remembered that she had golden false teeth. She was really friendly during Chinese New Year and I remember we had to shake her hand and get Ang Pow's from her. That was when she had both her legs... Yes, due to some disease, i belief its cancer, they had to amputate both her legs. Actually it was suppose to be one. But they discovered another growth and then they had to cut that too.

I mean imagine. You can't WALK. Forever, wheel-chair bound. I sometimes, admire her because of this. Somemore your self-esteem will be affected. I mean you have ABSOLUTELY no legs!!!

So ya about the memories... I only remembered the times we spent for her during Chinese New Year, its all so vivid. I mean, I was a kid when she was still healthy. And she will always put on that gold teeth smile. I would greet her, and she will go "Good boy".

Hey, but we were not that close. But no matter close or not. We are still part of the family. And relatives are your flesh and blood and thus, we are all in this together. I went to see her in the ward. Her body was still there. Just laying still, her eyes closed, with the breathing tube in her mouth.

Of course naturally, you would want to know how she died. I asked my great uncle's wife. She said she went off peacefully. They did not know she stopped breathing because they were dependent on the machine that monitors heart beat. This was after doctor had administered medication. Then as they were pacing around, one of my relatives noticed the breathing bag was not moving anymore, yet her heart show signs of movement. But the doctor confirmed. That once she's not breathing she's considered gone.

The reason why the heart monitor was still reacting was due to the medication. We stayed there for a long time. About 10pm, the monitor finally came to a line. No more sound, no more beeps. When I went in there, I saw all my Christian relatives are praying for her. For God's blessing upon her and to encourage themselves they said they will see her in heaven... Of course I would want the same hope too. So i did. I just prayed that God would at least visit her and talk to her before anything happens. I blessed her and after that we left TTSH.

3D-common-sense

Yes it was yesterday that I attended my first lesson in Animation from 3D sense Media School.

I decide to document some stuff here from the lesson or else I would probably forget. Also if anyone is reading this, you can find out more about animation. Its not easy by the way.

Ok, let me start off by saying, the class was just a class of four people. Pathetic? Not really. It was said that their normal Diploma Course has only 10 students! Wowzer! Anyway, that's 3Dsense Media School. Their motto was PASSION, FOCUS, DRIVEN. A great way for students to become. All three at a time.

Right, so I attended my First Lesson. And the lecturer, Gary Wee, told us a few stuff about the FILM PRODUCTION line. Thus, the first lesson is actually the planning stage as well as some fundamentals and after that, we did a few practicals with the tool called 3D Studio Max 9.

The planning stage was called the pipeline. And Gary stated that in order to animate something, the first backbone was... the STORY. After you wrote the script, then the storyboard happens along with the composing of the music and sounds as well as recruitment of people going to do the voice overs. After that is the Character Design and Environmental Design preparations. Animators will start the modeling and drawings of how the story is going to look like. That was known as Pre-production.

After which the Production occurs! This involves Character Animation totally. With lingos like Rigging, Rendering, Putting sensors, camera angles etc. However, the most intensive part of the process is the PLANNING. So this production part is only a minor area.

After this, is the Post Production where the Visual Effects artist will kick in. They will start doing lighting, fur movement, hair movement, particles eg. Fire, smoke, explosion, things that are made up of particles. After this, You have your credits rolling XD

After which we went straight to theory of Perception. There is 1 point and 2 point perception. There are more to go, its just that, most animators used up till 2 points. 3 points is a means of distortion of the picture. This is the most useful part for story boarding.

Next we went straight into the introduction of the 3D studio max tools and what each of it was for. Of course it was going to be hard to remember what each funtion is. But I just treat it as if I'm learning a new media software, which sometimes I play around with. After learning how the modeling of boxes and other geometry polygons. We then went straight to making a house. It was pretty simple yet complicated and irritating. LOL! Irritating because we had to adjust some polygon surfaces and had to click on every single part which you desire to either potrude or pull back.

Ok I'm boring some people already. LOL! I haven't shared finished but now, I need to go for lunch! I'm late! Blogging @ work again, u guessed it. Cya.

A new story idea! the S E V E N

Alright, I wanted to show my new story idea here! Please I really hope you can comment on it so I can seriously start writing on it. What are your views? Should I continue such a story?

Its a science-fiction novel. I have the inspirations from the show Appleseed. Indeed it was a great 3D animated movie. It is worth the money to buy too. If you love action and females as the main lead? This movie is for you!

Anyway, the story is called SEVEN, enjoy the prologue!


S E V E N : Sophisticated Evolutionary Veteran Enforcer Nuero-enhanced
Written by: Caleb

Prologue… Memory file 15…loaded


“GET DOWN!” yelled one of the men. Fien, ducked behind a broken wall and there was a loud explosion. Debri fell everywhere with some stones hitting some parts of his head despite covering it with both hands. But it lessen the damage.
“Move! Flank them!” Fien heard an officer yelled. He recognized the voice to be Sergeant Gillian. Grasping the MK-3000 rifle he had. He jumped over the wall with and opened fire. He ran swiftly, stopping only to hide behind broken trucks and debri as bullets rained down upon him.
Then he heard one of his men shouted from behind.

Fien saw a shadow looming behind him. And the intensity of the shadow tells him that something is coming at him from behind and its fast! Trusting his instincts, he dived forward and the sudden blast near him sent him diving further. He landed on his side and quickly turn to face the shadow. It was a Harbinger. That was what the rebel forces, the Advent, called the humanoid mech. It was a mech that mimics the normal human movements. In other words, it follows the exact human motion within the mech. It was sleek and deadly, and the Marines had a huge number of it.

Fien was not afraid. He immediately took his rifle and fired at the joints of the mech. The Harbinger was smart enough to show its armored side. Fien saw that the Harbinger contained a side minigun and saw the beginnings of its rotation. With quick reflexes, he somersaulted in front of it as it opened fire. He slide between the mech and fired a volley as he did. A splash of blood splattered his face and the Harbinger ceased. Just when he thought he had obtained victory. He looked around and saw that he was totally surrounded. His comrades were all dead, even the sergeant. All the Harbingers pointed their huge versions of their HR-AP-50 rifles. One blow from their 50 rounds and the human body is immediately dismembered. Fien glared at all the Harbingers.

“He managed to defeat a Harbinger. What is he?” One of them spoke, their radio was set to open channel.
“That was just a lucky shot.” One gruff voice said.
“Huh, if you had not watched him you would have immediately disagreed.” Another piped up.
“You were watching?” questioned one. A female voice.
“Hey don’t tell me you’ve forgotten about the Harbinger’s scope abilities.” Said the guy who watched him. He could not just stand there and hear them talk. He was fast enough to let loose a flash bang and the moment he let go the clip he put on his googles. There was a ‘pop’ sound and immediately a very bright light began to shine.
“WAH! Where he go?” Cried the lady.
“SHOOT! SHOOT!” The guy who piped up said.
“WAIT! DON’T SHOOT MORONS! WE ARE TOO CLOSE-“ The gruff voice spoke in alarm, but it was too late. Immediately shots were fired. The moment the flash was gone, only 2 mechs remained.
“Oh my GOD! WE KILLED THE COMMANDER!” One of the soldiers became hysterical.
“Where is that BARSTARD.” The lady was still alive.
“JAN! GET OUT OF YOUR MECH!”
“WH-“

BOOM!

An explosion occurred on the under side of the mech. It was instantly down. The other mech immediately shut down and went offline. The cockpit opened to reveal a soldier inside. He removed his arms from the arm coupling and then, grabbed his rifle by the side of the machine. He came down and was immediately shaking.

Either from fear or from anger, Fien could not comprehend. Yet he was proud of himself from taking down a mech squad all by himself. He approached the pilot from the back. Lifting his knife, he went in for the kill. That was when the pilot turned and immediately fired on him. He felt no pain. Just that he was shocked and surprised. Then he felt a tingling sensation and then, he fell to the ground.

Setting the Boundaries

Its been a long 2 days of filing... Yes, I have been doing "filing" which includes putting files into boxes and moving them to the store ALL BY MYSELF!

I mean, I moved and shifted a whole lot of files from shelves to boxes I have to make myself cause it was in a template form. Then I have to trolley my way to the storeroom and moved and arranged the boxes inside as well as to make space for more boxes. All in all, I would say at least 30 boxes of heavy files I have moved. Wow. Oh and I got a free pillow along with it. It was a Holiday Inn Atrium Staff Night Pillow and there were numerous of it in the store. Got my boss approval to take one. =)

Well I guess I have finally reached my limit to this job. The routine really makes me so bored. Such that I have even started to turn up late and of course I TRIED to not be late. But my body has a brain of its own. Thus, its time I set up my boundaries, a plan as well as a few disciplines that I REALLY need to follow. My problem was discipline, praying for discipline only stirs the Holy Spirit to EMPOWER you to succeed. Thus, in the end, ACTION is required! I suppose I have to learn to sleep early... and I need it anyway...

Probably I should state a rough idea here. I need to sleep at about 11pm latest. *sigh* I need to wake up early like 7am every morning. Erm, maybe earlier than that due to school. *sigh* Practice my animation, guitar, piano stuff everyday, and try to write a chapter a day. Yes, I have been procrastinating my studies.

Well I better end here for now. I pray that all procrastinators, you know who you are, do the same. God desires hardwork and not laziness.

Tired to the bone... More Headaches arises...

Recently, I have been thinking alot.

Ever since Pastor Tan preached on not to Procrastinate, the time is now. I knew in my heart that it is finally time to start something. I did not know it would land on a Sunday... So now, my church days will be Saturday. But Saturday i have work at Sumo, a stall at Food Junction in Lot 1 Shoppers Mall. However, I managed to negotiate with my supervisor to allow me off the hook for Saturday and let me work on another day.

Sure that was the First Hurdle. After that, there was the problem of practice. Where do I get the money to buy 3D Studio Max Software??? Hey, then 3Dsense Media told me that I can use their rooms on weekdays. Wow... A really dedicated school 3Dsense is... Yet my dilemma is... The school is all the way at Dhouby Ghaut. I mean its far away from my home in the West. I would have to take the Red Line all the way back home then the Green Line after my work and I hope that I will have enough time to work on my task and even do something of the task.

Third Hurdle, will I be able to cope with Working, Studying and Animation Studies at the same time? Remember, I am still doing a module. Come to think of it, Bioprocess Technology is not Easy... I need shear will power to get this through....

Last Hurdle, what if, I drift too far away from God? Due to busy-ness. I guess I won't know until I tried. Actually, my mom was very concerned in me taking a liking to animation.
"You must be creatively good as well as talented to be in this field!" She told me. But one of the directors said that all the works done are by shear hardwork. And I mean they slogged till the night, the morning and manage to produce a dew frames. Hey but its still not easy. I guess thats where we need God...

Anyway this are just my thoughts on how this course may affect me. Yet if I analyse the situation? I believed I am pretty blessed. I mean, my friends wanted to try out the course there and now I can witness for them as well as gain the knowledge first hand too. God... I know... Hardwork pays off, and I have been a Procrastinator, I admitted. Its the case for the Trailer Project from our Cell Group. I know I have to REMOVE this habit if I want to be an animator. And I MUST not be AFRAID of HARD WORK!!!

God come and change this area of my life. This so lazy and too last minute person. In the end, planning is needed to shape the project as well as the characters too.

By the way, the course name is known as, Creative Film Animation. Its a one man show and we can obtain our very own demorail. A portfolio of some sort. Anyway, i gotta end here... Sleeeeeeeeepy. ZZZZzzzz..... Ok nights.

Good News! Blog @ Work Fastforward version!

Indeed, I have received Good News.

First Good News of my week: Yang Wei and Elly, my Cell Group Members Just Baptised on Sunday!!! Now their names are David and Apphile. =)

After that, David and I head down to Jurong Point to hang out and we were discussing the usual topics on animation related stuff. Even games are part of the topic. Then we got distracted by a game called Silent Hill: The arcade game. Whoa, it was SCARY! I mean the setting, the boss we fought all were pretty hard to fight! Its a shooting game by the way. In the end, we finished the game and won the whole thing. All in 7 credits cooperative play. LOL!

Had fun on that Sunday.

2nd Good News happened Yesterday: I enrolled into 3DSense Media School for a CERTIFICATE Course in Film Animation. Though it was only one module, cause my Mom, had doubts about me acing it. But I'll show her, like I did in Secondary School. I'll be hardworking in work and my course too. The only downside to this course is, I won't be able to go to Church on Sunday... Had to switch my work schedule so that Saturday after Cell Group I can go down.

3rd piece of Good News: I have two guitar students!!! LOL! David and Guang Jin will be my students from today. If I can only teach them both at the same time... Hmm... Anyway that's all I can blog for now. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!

Cell Group Disaster!!!

Oh man, its the SECOND TIME that my Guitar String broke in front of Worship.

Really super Pai seh... But during that time, just before it broke, I really could sense God's Presence coming in and when the string broke, even when my face suddenly went red and hot, I felt a reassurance that God is moving in the cell group.

Anyway, it was a great time, Glenn came to cell group today! Wow... also during the time my string broke T_T man I am so embarassed! LOL!!!

It really has been a tough week. News of me going to retake my module again, had tonnes of work thrown at me... Had credit problems that piled up... That's work for you.

But other than that, all is good. I believe, that I have been neglecting my spiritual life, i mean from a Tradition to Transition to Transformation, as what my Pastor has preached, is not easy. But its worth the end product. I am now in Transition, the stage of adjustment to change. I feel that I have been very optimistic of late. I guess that is the only thing I liked the most about myself, the ability to see all things like everything's gonna be alright.

By doing so, I am prepared mentally to face that valley, that challenge. Today I was prayed for by two of my brothers in christ, Wei Loong and Bing Xun , for discipline and to bind laziness, I needed that the MOST. Well, because I tend to be just like that. Thats how I neglect my walk with God and just by deciding that I am going back is not enough. Its also about the ACTION.

Faith is an ACTION word. Thus my name Caleb. I need to Say it with Faith. =)

I love my baptism name... HAHA!

Reality...and Fantasy...

Just when I blogged a few minutes ago about having a Glimmer of Hope?

Well, it just got snuffed out. I will be wasting one more semester, doing the same crap of a module. I always love to make every situation and optimistic point of view. Probably, some of you will say that its ok. Well, its not okay. I can't sit around for One more semester just to see the same ass-looking teacher who cannot teach, who lectures till you are BORED to tears! My only hope is to appeal for a refferred examination. Meaning I do not have to attend classes, I just need to sit in for Test and exams. Which I believe I can do it.

In the meantime (here is my optimistic self), I can probably do some courses that will open my eyes to the animation world and of course, work. Need the money for future courses. Oh! And i can work on my piano. =)

Perhaps its too much, but i guess i just want to keep going. I do not want to live a life that has no excitement anymore. I prefer doing things that I love to do more these days. That's probably my Fantasy. Reality will tell me, You can't do all that! Fantasy me? I can do what I love to do and just keep going. If you ask me, I'll choose the latter. It sounds alot better than Reality...

Well, I'll have to figure something out. Now I'm going for my lunch and to write a e-mail to Dr Forday, my lecturer. Yup, for reffered examination appeal...

Suffering Suckatash!!! with saliva spitting out...

Quoted by Sylvester the Cat,

Famous for its spitting accent. He could almost be on parr with Daffy Duck. But i still think Daffy Duck wins him any day.

Anyway, why did i qoute it in the first place? Well, I am agonizing over my appeal results. Even though I have resigned to the fact that I have to take one more semester, the hope of being able to pass it is still there, lingering inside me. That Glimmer of hope.

Well, no point brooding over this sort of things. Btw, we had a new collegue at work today. She's, yes its a girl, the same age as me well... nearly, coz she said this year she's 20. I'm still 19 until July. Haha. She came from the same Polytechnic as me, but the course was different.
I had a talk with her during Lunch, actually Jaslyn, the person that new girl was attached to, was suppose to bring her for dinner. In the end Jaslyn wanted to go with another collegue for lunch outside of the Hotel and asked me to host her.

So i did.

Talked about how terrible Ngee Ann Poly can be with their money and all that stuff. Until she came to topics on relationships. Yup we got along pretty nicely haha. But folks, its not my time to go steady but anyway. I realised that at this point of time of my age, people tend to ask whether you are attached whether guy or girl. So she asked the question, do i have a girl-friend.

Honestly? I have loads. HAHA! BUT! Just friends. Not steady. I told her I felt I was not ready due to character flaws which I want to work on. also theres the fact of army. Then she told me she had girlfriends and I casually thought, it was just girl and girl go shopping. Until I noticed a picture on her handphone. There seems as if a guy is standing beside her so i asked.

"Who's that?"

She answered, "My girl-friend."

"Ya right, get outta here." I replied with a chuckle in my voice.

"No, really, my Girl Friend."

my eyes were O.O this big.

"Oooook."

Well, actually, I was at first surprised, but then I got over it. I mean. I have seen this before in my own school of LSCT.

"Ya i prefer girls." she said. I didn't push the topic. After which, she ask me to accompany her outside, why? For a smoke. Whoa. So I did, but i never smoked in my life. Don't worry, I did not passive smoke, coz she is considerate enough to blow it in another direction. Unless suay suay the wind blow in your face la.

So ya, to inform my friends out there, that be prepared. There are such cases that you will bump in your life. If of course, you want to reach out to the world in the market place. I belief, everyone of us need to sharpen our focus on God and not get swallowed up, disgusted and critical in the blink of an eye. Acceptance is to be not critical of the person of whatever he/she is doing. Acceptance is from the heart. Its love.

BUT That does not mean, we got to approve of what they are doing. Take note of that.

And yes, Blogging at work again.