Every time there is a test, I find myself getting super complacent... WHY!!! I can't help but to feel frustrated at myself. I know I have a test, but my body is not listening to the word STUDY. Only to play...
Perhaps its just me. I mean some people love to study. I take my hat off to that person. I wish I was too. I love to learn, but when it comes to learning something that I hate? I guess it becomes a challenge...
But I know I should not give up here. I NEED to pass this. I NEED to give it my all now. I NEED TO REALIZE THIS!!!
If I do not get this Biotechnology Diploma, I won't be able to get into the place I want to go. And also earn the money I need, in order for me to pursue my interest.
Its going to be a hard and narrow road. Which reminds me of what my pastor preached last Sunday. Usually the narrow the way, is the right way. I may not understand, but I decided the narrow way anyway. Because I love that sector of art. I prefer a career to art then to science. Sure science is intelligent, its all about the brains. I actually do not really have the brains for science. I mean, I have an interest, after all science is something that I am particularly curious. Yet, I feel that its an empty life for me there.
Art is also rather empty, except that in a film studio, it won't be. You have to make contact with people. Work together with them, if they have a problem, we help them, guide them. I prefer a working environment where relationships are needed to work it out. I wanted it that way.
I know sometimes I'm not that intelligent in terms of studies, yet I am willing to bet my last dollar in this career choice of Arts. It does not have to be fine arts, performing arts is fine too. =)
I guess I've just motivated myself to study now. I hope I can finish at least the important chapters by tomorrow so I can do some exercises on past year papers.
FOR MY FUTURE STUDIO!!! SHIKINAH STUDIOS!!!
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