Piano and Friends...

Its been awhile since I last blogged. These few days I was rather busy, with work and all that.

Alright ok so I am busy with work, but guess what, I am blogging from my workplace! Shhhh! Don't tell anyone. This job was not so bad, paid at 8 smackeroos per hour from 9am-6pm, Monday to Friday, and its packaged with free lunch, I'll say its not bad.

What job it is? Well... I'm not too sure about the position, but I'm suppose to be doing Credit Transactions or something for this Hotel named, Holiday Inn Atrium Singapore. I've worked there before, same old Finance Department. But the previous job I do not understand what was I doing, so i stopped after three weeks. Trust me, I do not want to talk about it. The job describtion that is. But the place there was friendly, though most of the time, they just did their own thing, which made me, lonely somehow. I wish my job won't be in this sort of field. I mean, I do not mind being alone, but what's the point of being alone and not doing what I like?

Anyway, I should touch on my above title. Yes, you saw the word Piano. Indeed, I have made my mind to learn Piano, FINALLY. Yea, I'm 20 years old so what? "You won't make it one. Doing animation and Piano at the same time." Who said that? My friend of mine.

I know he was being realistic. I was thinking that perhaps I can learn Piano and Animation at the same time. It's gonna be physically tiring and emotionally draining depending on the situation. The thing is, Hardwork has never really crossed my vocabulary most of the time. I wish I had, but I found out I'm more hardworking in watching shows, listening to music, playing music and just seeing art move in front of my eyes. I guess its also coz when I was young, I have been watching cartoons( and neglect my studies of course).

Still, I finally want to take the chance to prove myself, hardworking in the field I like, and here, my friend put me down straight away you know. Usually, he will mellow down before telling me, "Its not going to be easy." But nooooooooooo. He had to instantly throw me into the fire. "You won't make it one! Coz you're doing both ANIMATION(he emphasized on it) and PIANO. Piano is not easy. You do not know how hard it is to master piano."

Dude. I GOT A BROTHER AT HOME WHO PRACTICES PIANO! WHO SAYS I CAN'T SEE!!! WHO SAYS I DUNNO HOW HARD IT CAN BE! IT IS!!! Sorry just had to get that out. I am quite pissed at the remark. Of course I did not say that to him. I kinda hurt him too you know coz he always like to give this sort of remark.

Me: "You are always like that, can't you just support me for once."
Friend: "Thats the thing about you, you everytime won't admit your mistakes." (what mistakes???) My thoughts.
Friend(cont): "Next time you go army you sure die one. You give this sort of attitude."

He may say like that, but he's my best friend. I will never let him go. I mean, when you have friendships, its best that you treasure the once that are closes to you. Never let them go, even though sometimes they can be a jerk too. Still this friend of mine, always kept me in check. To be a realistic thinker and not just fantasize my way through.

But my desire for piano is strong. I have been holding back since Secondary School, its time i start things that I want to do. For the past years, I have been going with my mum's direction coz I do not want to upset her anymore. (which I had when I was a child) I want to still honour my mom, despite of me complaining of her. I search within myself, and I still love her, even if she is naggy and tend to talk most of the time about money. But that's just her. Her personality is a clear Gold and Green. That's why we conflicted alot. Blue and Orange you know. Both sides of the colour.

I do not know what my future holds, whether I will start a family or not, its up to God. However, I won't know if music and animation is my direction unless I tried.

Well anyway, my friend and I said sorry to one another. There is sure to be a void for now. At least we apologized quickly. I will never lose this friend of mine. I never want to.