Its been a long time since I've blogged. Army life is still going on. And the first phase is nearly through! WHOOHOO!!!
Its two more weeks to POP!!! I really cannot wait for the moment to come.
Seriously, I think my platoon is the worst there is. Loads of backstabbing, loads of loafers. You have to scold them to get them moving, and they take advantage of the kindness given by the officer or sergeants. Please, do not take things for granted.
Not to mention. Nobody volunteers. Instead they arrow here and arrow there. VOLUNTEER for Goodness sake! When I asked for people to help me in Singing an item, nobody was even WILLING to give it a try. I like people who are willing and are versatile in situations. I am actually not a guy like that, but I'm striving to gain that form of character, where I want willing individuals to give their best. When you volunteer, you show your sincerity and effort which you are willing to put in. Also it means that you have set your mind on the things you want to accomplish. In other words, you won't want to 'sabo' your friend.
In the army, I meet different people, with different ways of showing the same kind of character. Laziness, slander, quick to get angry, injustice in their speech - And sad to say, I am slowly getting influenced. That's when the bible is suppose to be my insulator from this culture. Somehow I am able to stop it, but some things have changed in me. Language wise, vulgarities have entered my tongue... Also the lust in me has just tripled... Its so hard to stay insulated. But yet I know that my God has been faithful. I have already made the commitment that I won't be into a BGR relationship till this 2 years is over. Once this 2 years is over, whether or not I can find a partner, is all up to my this 2 years...
My prayer for tonight would be salvation and mercy over my life. That God will show everlasting love throughout these two years of army. Overseeing that I will not be just insulating but I will penetrate into the lives of men, in the army. I wish to teach, to be a leader, and I really want to be an officer... or a specialist. It doesn't really matter. So long as I have a certain leadership role.
I want to impact lives through my influence, but I can't with vulgarities in my mouth. I have to kick off the habit. I need to. God help me in my moral standards, help me keep your laws that are engraved on my heart. Help me God that you will use the Holy Spirit to guide me through the 2 years. Let not the fire leave me, but burn ever brighter so that I can be a lighthouse in the darkest night. Amen.
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