So Small...

Well finally! Proteomics is cleared!

Now i have two more exams. Please let me pass it God...

Well for the past two or three days, I've been talking to Gail. Ok not talking, Singing. LOL! And i have lots to thank her for, so Gail, if you're reading this, well... Let's just say its a thank you from me to you.

If it weren't for her, I may not be able to find my musical abilities fascinating. Gail, probably, was the only girl i ever sing to. Ever. I have not sang infront of my friends and even if i had, it wasn't my genuine self. Gail showed me the world of writing music and it has intrigued me greatly. I really do want to write songs, not just saying it, but actually doing it. I really, really need more training.

Well my blog title is So Small. Its actually a title of a song sang by Carrie Underwood, the No.4? or was it 3? Not sure... But who care's about what number American Idol she's from, she's just a pretty DARN GOOD singer!
I love the chorus part and if you watch the MV, it really is touching to the heart, as well as, it made me realise things which we know, but we sort of neglect. That is love with not just family, but with the friends around you and you had to treasure them.

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

Indeed it brings great meaning to the life i've been living. Sure i know I'm a blue, I know who I am in Christ as well as who I really am, but i'm still not satisfied with my life. I needed something, and Carrie Underwood states it clearly, to have a stronger relationship with my family. I guess, after knowing my third year is ending soon, my parents are still rooting for me.

I bet I've made them disappointed for "wasting" their money on me on a course which i did not like it in the end. I feel so ashamed of myself.

I think I'm becoming like Gail! I'm writing a very long post! Ah well... I guess blogs are the only way, I can really place all my feelings into one place. Now to bed i go, its 12.46am, Saturday...